I'm very happy that my internet is working, it's great to be able to just sit here and waste hours of times with no real purpose or meaning while I wait for my significant other ( 
) I'm so glad that we're going back out again. Yes, it has been very rough at times, but it's continuously getting better, and I know that we can make it work. We're definitely meant for each other, and I know that we can make it work if we both work at it.
I need to obviously stop getting so jealous, and understand that my schedule does not allow for a lot of quality time together, and need to understand that she's going to spend more time with her friends than me because I am so busy and they are not. She does try and spend as much time as possible with me, but unfortunately that's not too much, and it makes me sad because I want to see her every minute of every day.
I came to the realization this morning that I take many things for granted. I have been taking Michelle for granted, I have been taking the internet for granted, I have taken my working abilities, my knowledge and smarts, my dedication and so much more for granted that I really need to stop.
At work I've been pissed off a lot because I've been trying to get promoted to this new position for like half a year (I've been working there for a year) and I know that I would do an amazing job at this position, and ALOT of people agree with me and say that I should be in this position. Well I'm constantly e-mailing the head of the call center in attempts to get this position. Apparently my immediate boss, her (head of the call center) are going to have a meeting, but that was scheduled like a week ago and in the mean-time 6 people have been promoted to the position that I've been trying to get. Besides these 6 people, at least 10 people have been promoted to it since I've been trying. Some of these people have been there for like 3 or 4 months, while I've been there for a year now. I don't think that there's any question anyone could possibly answer that I wouldn't know the answer for. I don't understand why they are by-passing me and promoting seemingly everyone else with any kind of knowledge what-so-ever. On top of being one of the smartest people there, and having been there for probably the longest, I've been trained in like 5 different departments, while most people have hardly been trained in one. I don't understand why I'm not being promoted and it's making me really mad. Apparently my current supervisor has to talk to my old supervisor to get some information on me from him so that we can have the meeting. Hopefully the meeting isn't some kind of me-bashing fest, but that's what it seems like it's going to be. If they promoted 6 people before even having this dumb meeting with me, it's pretty sure that I'm not going to get it. On top of all this, noone else has been having to jump through the hoops like I've been having to do. I think that there is some kind of hidden agenda that I'm not being told about. Either that or they just don't like me or something. I know for a fact that I could do this job better than anyone who is currently doing it, or especially the people who have just been promoted, and it tears me up inside to know that I'm trying so hard to get this job and deserve to be in this position so bad, and they're promoting people who don't even care (some don't even want to be promoted) instead of me... Oh well, I guess that's how life is, you're not supposed to care about your job, you're not supposed to do a good job in the hopes of getting promoted, and when you are supposed to be promoted I guess you're not supposed to make this obvious or try and get promoted.
) I'm so glad that we're going back out again. Yes, it has been very rough at times, but it's continuously getting better, and I know that we can make it work. We're definitely meant for each other, and I know that we can make it work if we both work at it.
I need to obviously stop getting so jealous, and understand that my schedule does not allow for a lot of quality time together, and need to understand that she's going to spend more time with her friends than me because I am so busy and they are not. She does try and spend as much time as possible with me, but unfortunately that's not too much, and it makes me sad because I want to see her every minute of every day.
I came to the realization this morning that I take many things for granted. I have been taking Michelle for granted, I have been taking the internet for granted, I have taken my working abilities, my knowledge and smarts, my dedication and so much more for granted that I really need to stop.
At work I've been pissed off a lot because I've been trying to get promoted to this new position for like half a year (I've been working there for a year) and I know that I would do an amazing job at this position, and ALOT of people agree with me and say that I should be in this position. Well I'm constantly e-mailing the head of the call center in attempts to get this position. Apparently my immediate boss, her (head of the call center) are going to have a meeting, but that was scheduled like a week ago and in the mean-time 6 people have been promoted to the position that I've been trying to get. Besides these 6 people, at least 10 people have been promoted to it since I've been trying. Some of these people have been there for like 3 or 4 months, while I've been there for a year now. I don't think that there's any question anyone could possibly answer that I wouldn't know the answer for. I don't understand why they are by-passing me and promoting seemingly everyone else with any kind of knowledge what-so-ever. On top of being one of the smartest people there, and having been there for probably the longest, I've been trained in like 5 different departments, while most people have hardly been trained in one. I don't understand why I'm not being promoted and it's making me really mad. Apparently my current supervisor has to talk to my old supervisor to get some information on me from him so that we can have the meeting. Hopefully the meeting isn't some kind of me-bashing fest, but that's what it seems like it's going to be. If they promoted 6 people before even having this dumb meeting with me, it's pretty sure that I'm not going to get it. On top of all this, noone else has been having to jump through the hoops like I've been having to do. I think that there is some kind of hidden agenda that I'm not being told about. Either that or they just don't like me or something. I know for a fact that I could do this job better than anyone who is currently doing it, or especially the people who have just been promoted, and it tears me up inside to know that I'm trying so hard to get this job and deserve to be in this position so bad, and they're promoting people who don't even care (some don't even want to be promoted) instead of me... Oh well, I guess that's how life is, you're not supposed to care about your job, you're not supposed to do a good job in the hopes of getting promoted, and when you are supposed to be promoted I guess you're not supposed to make this obvious or try and get promoted.