I need to learn my place, stop thinking I'm anyone's friend, stop thinking people want to see my comments. I'm tired of falling into the same trap and being made to look like a complete ass for giving a shit about people, like I'm terribly sorry I care but thanks for publicly shaming me.
Everything about today's culture is bullshit. You get shit on for...
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maleh:
The world prefers a lie, a stupid hypocrite that the crude truth of a person with its own character and opinion, we are in a world where if you do not let yourself be influenced by an imbesil you are the imbesil, it is like that, honey, I am a person of few friends since I was questioned by my girl since my very cold way of seeing and saying things, I am a realistic person and I love to face the truth, something that people avoid because they are uncomfortable being really them. Let them rot in hell, send them to hell for cowards and keep being yourself
My grandmother had her life support pulled yesterday evening. Her health has been failing in recent years. She had a kidney transplant years ago and I guess her kidneys started failing again and had been on dialysis again. She had severe pneumonia two years ago and mid last year found out she had esophageal cancer. They did surgery to remove it and she had been...
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You were my companion for more years than I got to know my own father and now you're gone too...
fate:
Sorry for your lost... My condolences
caraphernelia:
:((
I don't know if anyone else has ever felt this way... I've felt this way even as a small child, but how do you pay off your debt when that debt is your own existence? I know it's a depressing thought but it's just one I've never been able to shake and certain things last night and tonight have just caused it to resurface.
Feels like you really can't win sometimes, or all the time, or whatever...I don't know.
Some people are so kind to me and I will never know why. It's a kindness I have never come close to showing myself but because of it, I'm still here, in life, and it looks like I will still be here for awhile on this site as well. I will try to repay people for what they have done for me, whether they want...
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rambo:
I'm streaming again tomorrow, will you be there? :)
apropoetic:
@rambo I'll certainly try to be.
So I have until 11/27 to come up with the money to renew my subscription here... Hopefully I'll figure out something as I quite like it here even though my interaction on the site might be somewhat limited. I've discovered many amazing people here that I interact with on Twitter and Twitch as well as here and it would be nice to be able to...
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apropoetic:
@bashley That is unbelievably sweet of you to offer but it's ok. I wouldn't feel right accepting. I'll come up with something even if it takes me a little while.
rambo:
<3
I don't really say anything on here anymore and not that this sounds any different than before but I am not doing well...
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apropoetic:
@caraphernelia The continued circumstances of my life are draining me and my depression has just been worsening to a pretty serious degree.
caraphernelia:
damn, I'm with you, I know what this is as I already had a pretty bad depression. trust your psychologist and psychiatrist.
It's my birthday yet again and every year even since childhood they've been stressful and hard to deal with. I used to even plan my parties growing up according to what my friends wanted and catered to them during the party. The last decade or so I've just been alone in my house sitting at my computer like I do everyday or when I was...
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caraphernelia:
awww i'm still wishing you a happy birthday :o
apropoetic:
@shake_the_disease @caraphernelia Thank you both. Though I did just sit at home alone as usual, I was rather surprised by some of the people who sent me well wishes. Simple gestures like that, especially from people with no obligation to do so really mean a lot to me and definitely helped me get through the day.