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So yesterday wasn't nearly as bad as I expected. Ryan had gone to a family friend's house the night before and I'm guessing had a long talk with her about what was going on. Truly the first time he's talked about his side of the situation with anyone. It seemed to have really helped.

He went to a couple movies with us and then to dinner. He was nice. He seemed much more relaxed. He even hugged me after dinner. The first time since Thanksgiving. He ended up taking me back to my parents and walked me in. I asked if he wanted me to come back, and he said not now. It's fine. He's still working out what he wants/needs. He ended up coming back later to watch the Doctor Who Christmas special. He laid on me and fell asleep for a bit. Like I said much more relaxed.

Saturday there was a huge misunderstanding and he thought we were ending it. It might have been the "wake up call" that was needed for him to realize what was going on on my end. It was so hard. I thought it would've really been the end. Yesterday was a huge leap forward.