Is there any way this month could get worse? Probably, unfortunately. So I went on a mini vaca to come back for a day and our house gets burglarized..... something to do with the exhaust system on my car has broken AGAIN, and something else in the back is probably breaking or has broken or w/e...(it sounds like something rolling around in my trunk, but it made the noise when I was stopped....). My odometer has been broken for a year and I'll need to get that fixed before end of next month for inspection, and the motor for the driver side window has been burned out for a few months.
I have NO money. I've only been working 2 days a week ( adding up to maybe 12 hours) and am trying to finish my schooling (which isn't going as well as I'd hoped). My "extra" stuff that I'm doing with my parent's science fiction book con is starting to annoy me and I just want to be done and over with it, mostly because things are waiting till the last minute to be done and it ALWAYS is so you'd think they'd learn.
I haven't had a relationship worth two shits in 5 years, my body is all out of whack, my "empathy mood swings" are starting to happen again, I need to move out of my parents house, I need a real job, I need a real life....
ARGH!
Okay now that my ranting is done.... I'm not saying my life is awful and a complete mess. It's just all piling up this month at once. My mini vaca was fun. I miss it up in Bradford (as shitty as it could be). I made more money and got more hours. I didn't have to worry about waking my parents up if I wanted to go out later or come home later because I had my own place. Even though I had the drama, it really didn't bother me. Plus I had the best mattress EVER!
I just don't want to live here anymore. I need a new place to be. I don't even want to really be within driving distance....or I want to live far enough away that people would really have to plan to visit and not just stop by when they wanted. Bradford was that....it was close enough that my parents could visit, but far enough away that it wasn't every month....
Also the whole relationship thing....I'm so ready to settle down it's not even funny. Okay....yea....I am perfectly content with my FWB arrangement right now. But if someone came along and we meshed, I would be soooo okay with giving up my single life. I love the stupid stuff that goes along with a relationship that usually doesn't happen with FWBs. The cuddling, the stupid inside jokes, the pet names, the cuddling, the going out together or just staying in together, did I mention the cuddling?lol.
Okay, really, I'm done ranting and whining....Going to bed....lots to do today....maybe I'll be able to talk to my WFF (who I miss very much) today.
I have NO money. I've only been working 2 days a week ( adding up to maybe 12 hours) and am trying to finish my schooling (which isn't going as well as I'd hoped). My "extra" stuff that I'm doing with my parent's science fiction book con is starting to annoy me and I just want to be done and over with it, mostly because things are waiting till the last minute to be done and it ALWAYS is so you'd think they'd learn.
I haven't had a relationship worth two shits in 5 years, my body is all out of whack, my "empathy mood swings" are starting to happen again, I need to move out of my parents house, I need a real job, I need a real life....
ARGH!
Okay now that my ranting is done.... I'm not saying my life is awful and a complete mess. It's just all piling up this month at once. My mini vaca was fun. I miss it up in Bradford (as shitty as it could be). I made more money and got more hours. I didn't have to worry about waking my parents up if I wanted to go out later or come home later because I had my own place. Even though I had the drama, it really didn't bother me. Plus I had the best mattress EVER!
I just don't want to live here anymore. I need a new place to be. I don't even want to really be within driving distance....or I want to live far enough away that people would really have to plan to visit and not just stop by when they wanted. Bradford was that....it was close enough that my parents could visit, but far enough away that it wasn't every month....
Also the whole relationship thing....I'm so ready to settle down it's not even funny. Okay....yea....I am perfectly content with my FWB arrangement right now. But if someone came along and we meshed, I would be soooo okay with giving up my single life. I love the stupid stuff that goes along with a relationship that usually doesn't happen with FWBs. The cuddling, the stupid inside jokes, the pet names, the cuddling, the going out together or just staying in together, did I mention the cuddling?lol.
Okay, really, I'm done ranting and whining....Going to bed....lots to do today....maybe I'll be able to talk to my WFF (who I miss very much) today.
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littlebaby:
sounds like you need some canadian loving...and i'm willing to give it. 
drjones:
When it rains it usually pours. Wanting to live on your own and wanting something more than a FWB situation are perfectly natural feelings. Still think you should let me give you some money :-P