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same here. although "early" for me is anything before 1pm.

i have been having such a hard time waking up each morning; feeling drugged. maybe cos i'm not really eating right, drinking enough water, and not exercising... oh yeah. that must be it.

what i did today, even though i knew i was wreaking havoc on my system, was this:

being late to work (as usual), i had 10 minutes to run and buy a sandwich to chow on before starting my shift. i hadn't eaten since the night before, and was therefore quite famished...

yawning, i ran-walked it over to the nearest quizno's down the block from my work

decided halfway down the street that the sandwich would take too long to make and i wouldn't be able to eat it anyway for a few hours,
plus i would be such a bitch to customers if i didn't wake up in some dramatic fashion,
so

i marched right into the starbuck's at the halfway point and killed my healthy appetite with a venti caramel frapp, knowing then i wouldn't be hungry until it was time to go home.

and now it's 4am and i need to get back to a normal schedule again.

i can't go on like this! stupid boyfriends and the stellar choices i make related to them!

..damn me! damn me!!