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what a world........my divorce wasnt granted. i have to go back to court in two weeks. grgle........ i still have no job.....my car almost conked out on me.......ive been slacking off on working out the past two days......ive slept more than a person with mono..(which ive always wanted for some strange reason).... i did learn how to drive stick though.......thought i would drop the...
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what a world........my divorce wasnt granted. i have to go back to court in two weeks. grgle........ i still have no job.....my car almost conked out on me.......ive been slacking off on working out the past two days......ive slept more than a person with mono..(which ive always wanted for some strange reason).... i did learn how to drive stick though.......thought i would drop the...
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karebeer:
yea. im definately NOT having a very positive day today either.. got 3 fuckin hrs of sleep all because i was up til 4am arguing w/the man who "will marry me one day".. all over "meaningless sex & my misunderstanding of the term "settle down".... and then BRITE and early (7am) i had drive 20mins in traffic just to say goodbye to my sister whos going to italy for 2 weeks. ill miss her. but i sure wouldnt mind missing the aim away messages from HIM. "A new era has officially begun. An era where I only care about me! And it feels pretty damn good!" yea. doesnt THAT fuckin blow. 
obviously our 2 hr convo didnt do shit, but screwed things up even worse... i HATE love. ya kno? 
obviously our 2 hr convo didnt do shit, but screwed things up even worse... i HATE love. ya kno? tuesday morning..........my head hurts............im tired.........all i want to do is get my ass kicked to a bloody pulp........so i can sleep forever.....and not think or care or worry or love or hate....my profile picture is blurred....thats how i feel.....all blurred, like i dont even know who i am... my court date is in hours.....then i will be officially divorced.......woohoo........ive stopped carring..........probably so i wont hurt........instead...
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karebeer:
love & lack of love both blow serious ass.
cheer up hun.. you arent alone... i @ least can promise that.
xox
*~Karen~*
love & lack of love both blow serious ass.
cheer up hun.. you arent alone... i @ least can promise that.
xox
*~Karen~*
apontes29:
thanks...........life is certainly interesting.
........its saturday night..............in the past two days ive gone through 600 bucks........got my car registered........saw dodgeball........worked out insanely.........called a friend i havent talked to in awhile........ran into a friend i havent seen in about 5 years.....went to a stripclub (with my ex-mother in law) for the first time to see two friends....and then went drinking with my brother at his underage friends house........ive also slept...
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well then............havent updated in a day or two cause alot of stuff has been happening............and its 6 in the morning right now and i am going to bed so i wont be commenting on anything right now..........i did get my car registered though....whoohoo!.........and i have a friend on SG now.......cool cool.
off to bed then......
off to bed then......
5oulgirl:
glad to hear about your car...i might be getting a job at a laundrymat! yay!! hahaha happy to be your friend 
apontes29:
and im happy to be yours......hope your computer gets working again and i think working at the laundrymat would be cool as hell........hope it works out for you
sigh..........
i need a life. or a job. or somebody to blame.... instead i again sit facing the monitor drinking a can of dr pepper......
i went to my brothers high school graduation tonight.....i dont like ceremonies much.......there are too many happy people there....i guess i dont like happy people, probably because im not happy.... i didnt even goto my graduation.......and of course, being surrounded...
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i need a life. or a job. or somebody to blame.... instead i again sit facing the monitor drinking a can of dr pepper......
i went to my brothers high school graduation tonight.....i dont like ceremonies much.......there are too many happy people there....i guess i dont like happy people, probably because im not happy.... i didnt even goto my graduation.......and of course, being surrounded...
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5oulgirl:
somebody to blame.....i would love to have one of those,....ohwait,...i do, its my damn self! shit happens life sucks. i feel you man...
here i am again. online and alone. aloss and adrift.... quite the dramatic huh?
whatever....
i think i have somehow been able to put off the crash i thought i was going to have.....i know i will be down and depressed again in the futer...cant fight that fact... but for now im kind of hovering above the pit i have been in so many times...
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whatever....
i think i have somehow been able to put off the crash i thought i was going to have.....i know i will be down and depressed again in the futer...cant fight that fact... but for now im kind of hovering above the pit i have been in so many times...
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holy crap.........
i just awoke from sleeping about 16 hours.... i guess i was abit sleep deprived. of course this means that i will now be awake untill tuesday night... the joys of living........ im trying not to be depressed... the sleep thing helped me abit i think. now im motivated to clean my room and do some laundry... and try not to think too...
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i just awoke from sleeping about 16 hours.... i guess i was abit sleep deprived. of course this means that i will now be awake untill tuesday night... the joys of living........ im trying not to be depressed... the sleep thing helped me abit i think. now im motivated to clean my room and do some laundry... and try not to think too...
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"i'm losing ground
you know how this world can beat you down
and i'm made of clay
i fear i'm the only one who thinks this way
i'm always falling down the same hill
bamboo puncturing this skin
and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall i'm drowning in
2 feet below the surface i can still make out your wavy face...
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you know how this world can beat you down
and i'm made of clay
i fear i'm the only one who thinks this way
i'm always falling down the same hill
bamboo puncturing this skin
and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall i'm drowning in
2 feet below the surface i can still make out your wavy face...
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..............talked to my sister for an hour today...that was about the highlight of my day i think. she is going to germany for three years in december. im a tad bit jealous...but definately happy for her....its funny all the guy problems she has.... worked out insanely again...trying to one day go spec forces in the air force and barring that, the army.... its amazing how...
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captknutz:
just wanted to say welcome to the group.
knutz
knutz
......borring day gone. worked out for a couple of hours. went hiking for about 3 miles.... i feel sore and dead.... talked to somebody on AIM and then they dissapared without saying bye... oh well.... hopefully i get paid tomorrow because i have some bills that need to be taken care of soon....ah, the joys of life....