apontes29

becuase you bugged me liv.

update time. has it been so long since i updated this thing. wow. not much is happening i guess. i goto work. i come home. i spend too many hours online.. was going to goto the SGCT lake thing, but my car broke down the day before. it still isnt fixed yet, but at least now it is driveable. gotta take victory when it comes i guess. i did finally meet and hang out with liv though. that was cool. i have a headache right now... i usually dont get them. im trying to ignore it. my sleep cycle is still screwed up. im on medication now though, some sorta antidepressant that is supposed to help me goto sleep too. hasnt worked as far as i can tell yet.... but its only been a week or two. i am going to councling now as well. i just went for the first session on wed.. basically told my history to the person. didnt even finish it. hopefully the meds and the therapy can help me out abit. i know its on me too though.. but maybe i can start to let go some... i feel like im stalking this girl at the supermarket. she works the cash register and i make exscuses to go in there and buy something hoping she is working and i can maybe say two words to her... luck and love are not on my side im afraid though. ouch my head. in sixty or so days i will be on active duty again. woohoo. a much bigger paycheck and benefits too. i got to start getting my arse into shape though. ive been slacking on my physical conditioning since i was sick ( my last post actually..)..i have no exscuse other than i get too damned lazy living in the basement at my mothers house. i think this is enough for an update though. maybe i will try for some sleep. <sigh>

and just because i like the darn chicken and cat smilies.....