Hey everyone.
This week has been a rollercoaster. I don't know if I'm coming or going anymore.
My mom is so sad. When I call her I just feel like a lead ball has been dropped in my gut. My dad is being a prick, even though she depends on him to eat and take her medicine. They're slowly going through all of their savings on hospital bills. And the worst thing I've heard, if my mom doesn't get her operation, if for some reason they can't do it, she has to get a feeding tube. She wouldn't be able to eat again, maybe permanently. She wants to give up, because she wants everything to be over. If I were in the same situation I would feel the same way. And that just rips me apart inside. I don't want to talk about wills and finances....I don't want to think about death.
I feel worn out and tired. And it takes all my will power to just not drop everything and go home. I feel so helpless. And with work being anything but helpful in this situation I don't know what to do. I feel like a scared child, hiding under the table. I don't feel like an adult, even though I need to be one. I want to go back 10 years when my mom was healthy and she moved around and she was the way I remember.
I don't know...I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I just wish the gnawing in my stomach would stop.
But I can't dwell on misery. I need to think about something else.
Song of the day: Raining in Darling by Bonnie Prince Billy
Well...I came in third place of the Love and Rockets giveaway. Thats cool. I get a free comic and my little essay in complete form or partially will be in L&R #15.
I wrote about how much I love Maggie, and how she's been my dream girl for years.
What can I say...I like curvy girls!
I'm hoping my craft show will take my mind off of everything. I need to get away for a little while. I already priced all my bags, measured my tables, and got all my stuff together. Tonight is a quick run to Target for comfortable chairs and a tablecloth. Maybe a trip to Super Fresh and Whole Foods for snacks and drinks. I think I'm ready.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I may post at some point, maybe giving a play by play of the festivities. I can't wait to meet a few of you, especially my favorite NYer Illstabyou
Later!
Still pimpin..
Renegade Craft Fair
McCarren park in Williamsburg Brooklyn
Saturday June 25th and Sunday june 26th
Be there or be square!
This week has been a rollercoaster. I don't know if I'm coming or going anymore.
My mom is so sad. When I call her I just feel like a lead ball has been dropped in my gut. My dad is being a prick, even though she depends on him to eat and take her medicine. They're slowly going through all of their savings on hospital bills. And the worst thing I've heard, if my mom doesn't get her operation, if for some reason they can't do it, she has to get a feeding tube. She wouldn't be able to eat again, maybe permanently. She wants to give up, because she wants everything to be over. If I were in the same situation I would feel the same way. And that just rips me apart inside. I don't want to talk about wills and finances....I don't want to think about death.
I feel worn out and tired. And it takes all my will power to just not drop everything and go home. I feel so helpless. And with work being anything but helpful in this situation I don't know what to do. I feel like a scared child, hiding under the table. I don't feel like an adult, even though I need to be one. I want to go back 10 years when my mom was healthy and she moved around and she was the way I remember.
I don't know...I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I just wish the gnawing in my stomach would stop.
But I can't dwell on misery. I need to think about something else.
Song of the day: Raining in Darling by Bonnie Prince Billy
Well...I came in third place of the Love and Rockets giveaway. Thats cool. I get a free comic and my little essay in complete form or partially will be in L&R #15.
I wrote about how much I love Maggie, and how she's been my dream girl for years.
What can I say...I like curvy girls!
I'm hoping my craft show will take my mind off of everything. I need to get away for a little while. I already priced all my bags, measured my tables, and got all my stuff together. Tonight is a quick run to Target for comfortable chairs and a tablecloth. Maybe a trip to Super Fresh and Whole Foods for snacks and drinks. I think I'm ready.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I may post at some point, maybe giving a play by play of the festivities. I can't wait to meet a few of you, especially my favorite NYer Illstabyou
Later!
Still pimpin..
Renegade Craft Fair
McCarren park in Williamsburg Brooklyn
Saturday June 25th and Sunday june 26th
Be there or be square!
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juliette:
i wish we had a laughing emotokon b/c i am laughing, loudly, while trying to eat my 3rd trader joes brand ice pop of the day.
shadyvito:
Good luck at the fair.