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5 songs I would use to introduce myself to someone I didn't know, that would explain me
(as stolen from Akira)

1. The Spangle Maker - Cocteau Twins
2. Bewitched - Luna
3. Dead Flag Blues - Godspeed you black emperor
4. Geranium Lake - Innocence Mission
5. Starflur - Sigur Ros


I'm cranky and irritable and stressed out. I feel emotionally tired. Like I want to cry and sleep and knit, and nothing much else.
Venus from Low keeps running through my head

I'm having a bad day, and its only just started. I woke up early too, earlier then I would have liked, so I'm tired. And, being a dummy I opted for cigarettes over iced coffee this morning. I miss my caffine buzz.

My work has piled up again. I stayed late yesterday, I'll probably need to stay late again today. I'm just getting sick of always being behind. I want to come in one day and not have a stack of papers and a million emails waiting for me. This stress is just wearing me down.
And the fact that I only have $30 in my bank account is making me depressed. So what exactly am I busting my ass for?
I know...I sound like a broken record. I just needed to vent.

This weekend will hopefully turn out better. There's an open SGPhilly event on Saturday night, and at some point over the weekend I'm going to see my mom and dad. I still need to get him a birthday present and a card. I don't know what to get. I'm at a loss. I usualy buy him games for his X-box or weird toys, but this time nothing is standing out in my head. Maybe I'll get him some DVD's. Oooh...wait..I know. I'll get him the reissue of one of the star Trek movies...hmmm...

My wavy scarf is beautiful so far. I am loving my lace work. I cannot wait to start my shawl. Maybe I'll test out a few needle sizes and see how it looks. I want to start it sooner then later. Even though, I do have two sweaters to keep me occupied.

I watched a beautiful copy of Suspiria last night. It was in surround THX sound, the colors were vibrant. Just lovely. Well, as lovely as a horror movie could be. it is my favorite of the Dario Argento films. It has this dreamlike quality that I love. It feels more like a nightmare then a movie.

I think I've calmed down a bit now. I feel better having everything come out. Maybe this weekend I could go for a long walk with my boy. That would aleviate some of my stress. And I still am itching to go to the beach and boardwalk. There's nothing better in the summer!

Stay kool kiddies!

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My mom is on her way to the hospital. Her blood pressure dropped and she's leaking...I'm not sure about the second part. I got a call from my Dad's cell, which automatically puts me into panic mode because he never calls me unless something has happened. I'm not sure what I should do. I guess I'll just wait to go home until tommorrow since she's only supposed to stay overnight.
I'm still nervous and upset. How low does your blood pressure have to be to be hospitalized??