aponia

I've been so slammed with work. I work for a company that deals with international schools, and I particularly deal with international resale agents. None of them had Memorial Day off. I literally have about 60 emails to go through, and thats only the tip of the iceberg. I have mountains upon mountains ontop of that.

Stress stress stress....

I guess I'll be staying late this week.

My weekend was nice and laid back. Friday night was sushi and drinking, Saturday was girl talk and shopping with Grrryphon, Sunday was Star Wars and Monday was a hike through the park with Apocalypse_Dude. Of course, the entire time I was dreading the work I was coming back to.

I feel like I'm in a rut. Like I'm just getting sick of everything. I'm sick of my hair, my job, my walk to work, my dinner, my conversations, everything. I don't feel cute or intelligent anymore. I feel ugly and stupid. Like everything out of my mouth is meaningless.

I used to have self-esteem, I just don't know where it went. How can I compete with people more lively then me and cuter then me? I can't.

Don't mind me. I shouldn't even be writing here anymore...since some say I write too much. What do you think, am I too wordy?

I really dislike myself. I really do.

Music choice for today: Nina Nastasia