So, its officially summer. No turning back, no running backwards into the snow.
I'm not a hot person at all. I wilt. I get anxiety attacks. I throw up occasionally. I just hate heat. But....I deal with it. I've survived it for 29 years so far, I'm sure it won't take me down now.
I'm purposely trying not to be grouchy right now. My jaw hurts something feirce. Between clenching when I'm sleeping, and my sinuses exuding tons o pressure on my face and mouth, I'm just a big ball of hurt. Like someone has punched me in the face repeatedly. I have to keep on checking to see if I'm swollen too. All that pressure has to go somewhere, right?
I had an interview this morning, but I chose to cancel it. It would have cost me $11 to get there, which isn't bad, but the monthly train pass would have been like $170 a month or something. So they would have had to pay me something really good to afford that, and I don't think that was the case. So I chose to skip it. I didn't want to, because man, I want out of my current situation and I want to call something more permanent home, but I just can't wast money and time going on wild goose chases either.
Thankfully I've been getting a lot of calls, but nothing has panned out yet, which is disheartening. My ideal job would be to like work 12 hours a day for 4 days and have the rest off. Not the easiest thing to find. But in a perfect world, thats what I want. Since sitting around doing busy work drives me insane. Or even worse....doing nothing. I'd rather work my ass off and get alot done and have the rest of the time for me then have a job that I get paid to be bored at.
My new blue stole is almost done. I'm amazed at how much I've gotten done in the past three weeks. And I don't even work on it everyday. It reminds me that I can actually get knitting done if I focus my energy on it. Now only if it would cool done a little bit so I can finish a few wool based projects. Its just too hot to have a shawl sitting on my lap while I finish it.
Things I'm looking forward to:
- my haircut on Saturday. I love my hairdresser so its always fun!
- The Art Star show on Saturday. I'll see my lovely friend Rachel and everything.
- Macy's open house on Wed. I'm going to talk to cosmetics people, hopefully I can get into a good company there. I'm personally hoping for Bobbi Brown.
- 4th of July!
Everything else can go screw.
I'm not a hot person at all. I wilt. I get anxiety attacks. I throw up occasionally. I just hate heat. But....I deal with it. I've survived it for 29 years so far, I'm sure it won't take me down now.
I'm purposely trying not to be grouchy right now. My jaw hurts something feirce. Between clenching when I'm sleeping, and my sinuses exuding tons o pressure on my face and mouth, I'm just a big ball of hurt. Like someone has punched me in the face repeatedly. I have to keep on checking to see if I'm swollen too. All that pressure has to go somewhere, right?
I had an interview this morning, but I chose to cancel it. It would have cost me $11 to get there, which isn't bad, but the monthly train pass would have been like $170 a month or something. So they would have had to pay me something really good to afford that, and I don't think that was the case. So I chose to skip it. I didn't want to, because man, I want out of my current situation and I want to call something more permanent home, but I just can't wast money and time going on wild goose chases either.
Thankfully I've been getting a lot of calls, but nothing has panned out yet, which is disheartening. My ideal job would be to like work 12 hours a day for 4 days and have the rest off. Not the easiest thing to find. But in a perfect world, thats what I want. Since sitting around doing busy work drives me insane. Or even worse....doing nothing. I'd rather work my ass off and get alot done and have the rest of the time for me then have a job that I get paid to be bored at.
My new blue stole is almost done. I'm amazed at how much I've gotten done in the past three weeks. And I don't even work on it everyday. It reminds me that I can actually get knitting done if I focus my energy on it. Now only if it would cool done a little bit so I can finish a few wool based projects. Its just too hot to have a shawl sitting on my lap while I finish it.
Things I'm looking forward to:
- my haircut on Saturday. I love my hairdresser so its always fun!
- The Art Star show on Saturday. I'll see my lovely friend Rachel and everything.
- Macy's open house on Wed. I'm going to talk to cosmetics people, hopefully I can get into a good company there. I'm personally hoping for Bobbi Brown.
- 4th of July!
Everything else can go screw.
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Yeah basically I decided to work on my family and well since they don't get along I had to just do what I had to do...felt like shit about it..but I tried to be exactly what M wanted.
But he called me right after I had the girls and well I had ALOT of problems with the birth and I was in survival mode...and then M moved in and well yea
I have never been to the aquirium did you the baltimore one doesn't allow strollers? pisses me off. Carryin' a 25lb baby doesn't seem like a good time. But the NJ allows em and is cheaper so I guess it is ok. I also wanted to go to the please touch they are having an alice in wonderland thing...
Is the Amy Sedaris interview in the new Venus? I'll have to go get a copy!