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Sunday Nov 20, 2005

Nov 20, 2005
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I want to write to everyone, but I just can't muster enough happy thoughts to do so.

I've just been a real mess as of late. I've been crying every morning and every night. I can't even think happy thoughts about my mom without sobbing. I've never gone this long without talking to her. How am I supposed to go another like 60 years? Its just all too much. Sometimes it feels like I'm only using will power to keep going, because if it was up to me I'd throw in the towel.

This is, without exaggeration, the single hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. I just feel pain and sadness all the time, and sometimes its just overwhelming, much more then I can bare.

I hate to dwell, but its hard to think about anything else. The commercials for the holidays are just so depressing. I wish I could go live in a hole until January 2nd.
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stewfnrocker:
Chin up dear. You just need to be around your friends.

I want to wish you a happy thanksgiving and to feel better.
Nov 24, 2005
lemuria:
i dont think i have ever seen a mohair goat, i will have to go google one now. smile i was reading your answers and i remembered that john waters was in my dream last night. we were in a classroom and he was sitting in front of me. i was trying to get a good look at his stache. biggrin i love labrodorite!! and wooden rollercoasters! i like the clickity clack noises they make. and if thats what is at the top of your list, it may be possible if you dont mind driving two hours north of where you live. wink wink thank you very much for taking the time for fill all of them out and i hope you get to go on vacation somehow. kiss
Nov 26, 2005

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