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Well, time to give this another shot.
I'm back for now, Still messed up, but managing to cope with it better. I have come to the realization that Alvina is not the woman I fell in love with, married, or had a son with. She has chosen to change and I do not want to be with the woman she has become. I still care for her, but we do not love each other anymore, and that is mostly because we both tried to be people we are not while we were together, and during that time, forgot who we really were.

I have been having a great time over the last few weeks, and I am sure more good times are to come. I have found new friends, connected with some long lost ones, and have been doing the things I love to do. I have gotten back into the BDSM scene, though I am trying out a new role and I am still a little shaky at it. I have been getting stoned with my friends, and spending time with my son (not while stoned, I promise).

I have also gotten back into my art, my 3D rendering, and I am loving my new inspiration. All in all, I am doing great, though my bi-polar does get the better of me from time to time.

Well, for now I work early and am going to go to bed, but I will be back in action shortly.

Cheers all, luv you much!