apocdistroyer

its funny when your moments of carity come. me i sat smoking cigarette's cloves since i dont smoke anything else and it finaly got through to me my life is being wasted.... i have spent everyday since me and neives(my ex) broke up sulking and sleeping my frustations away in my pasafistic manner of argument with my lifes curent path. but again im stuck doing what i do best starting over and moving on...
im looking forward to moving out sadly ill be moving into a two bedroom apt and isted of one roomate ill have two both lesbians living with me... i dont know if thats a good thing but im sure it makes me far from desireable to anyone ... o well say la vi its all there is in life some times ...
although my life has become a laff riot of bordum.... i wonder if my artistic block will finaly lift.. and ill have my drawing's back ... some day ill start again ill half to put some of my art work on here soon
wonce im make some new ones.
ill half to go to a park and draw if i can and if i can go insanely mad but thats life anger passes like all things ...the problem with mortality is to be mortal is to pass.
but there is allways the next begining. and the next chance for happness i think by now im sure ive missed enouf of them for goodness sakes. theres not always an ending to a story but a new telling as they have been doing to all the books and movies that were made long ago