...depresed.. i think its a constant state of egzistance for me when things seem to be getting better the just explode in my face... i have no ballance ... and worst of all i need a new job bad... been trying to get into something anything fun.. but nothing been trying to get a new car again... failed ... life blows...wont someone try something stupid so ill have something to smile at ... honestly i think ive lost most of all the people i knew... better that way i guess couldnt relay one anyone anyway... i hate being alone... this sucks 
