apocdistroyer

you know ... this shit is so fucked up... we as humans spend all our lives searching for peaces of ourselves ... and peace... but all we find is a contuous bombardment of diffrent ideals and realitys that just destrots what we are looking for untill we forget what we set out to find... i long ago... wanted peace... nothing fancy just someone who cared for me and someone i could fight for and be someone to... but all i found was people who were so close to the edge that they leep off if the wind blew... and then being the stupid idot i am... id help them ... get them whatever they sought to find.. and theyed leave... and soon after.. im alone... and they go right back.. to what they professed to hate...being... why ? is it so fucking hard to say ... life sucks... time to move on... crazy fucking bastards.. i wish i had the personal joy of showing them the door out... but alas... i cant be angry... no anger is to much and to ...destrutive... what the fuck... fuck ... stupid idots finaly got to me... ive spent so long trying to find a place that i felt worth something.. a home that i could fight to create and protect... a safe place... thats all ... but insted all i get is used by some cunt... that thinks its fun.... to take everything... ...sorry to rant... my emotions are everywere lately... i have no peace... and my heart is in so many pieces that id be amazed if i can fix it again... but thats life... to trillon ripples in a small puddle... each ripple changes the others and by doing so changes its self... and we go on... what have i become