apocdistroyer

its funny i guess .. the more my body wants to have sex.. the more my mind and soul fight it... its funny cause it just makes me go back and forth... its like ping pong... but at least ill never hurt someone for my own sick preversions... i supose its just that line of i want this but if i do i know what im capable of so i cant cause if i do ill never be who i am again.. i love who i am im able to help to protect .. if i give in i cant i can only protect myself and thats not power destruction is not true power ... true power comes from being able to stop destruction and create hope and life in its wake... i started drawing again... there getting good i guess.. ill post some up in december... ill miss being able to stare into the screen and feel that theres someone staring back but there isnt and thats life to gain something you must give something up of equal value... the first rule of alcmamy... its true i supose ill gain much i think ... ive allready lost a lot.. so its time to get back up.. lets go up and away....
i must succede
blessed be all and ill miss talking to myself giving advice and help and never finding any ... i supose thats fate for you those who can protect are never protected... cry... i hate feeling alone and cold.... by for now be back in december