apocalynx

just . that is all i can do.



I thought I was growing wings-
it was a cocoon.

I thought, now is the time to step
into the fire-
it was deep water.

Eschatology is a word I learned
as a child: the study of Last Things;

facing my mirror-no longer young,
the news-always of death,
the dogs-rising from sleep and clamoring
and howling, howling,...
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hello, reality. we meet again. *brandishes a sword* my name is inigo montoya. you killed my father. prepare to die.

ahh, yessah. things have been going. up and down the usual, you know how it goes. classes start soon, w00t! take that, real world, i get to avoid being in you for a few more years! plus my classes seem pretty cool, hopefully i can...
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ahh, yes. so the holidaze are over, i woke up and suddenly it was 2005. "okay then," i said. "back to bed for me."
well, not really. it was more like, "whooo! WHOOO!" *drink*
and then i woke up, and then it was 2005.
"okay then," i said, downing a glass of water. "hey mike. you up? dude. let's blaze in this hotel room, my...
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whoa. what? i thought i cancelled my account awhile ago!
[edit: after further clicking, it's set to end january 27th. whoops! eh. my bad. sorry people, i should've updated more!]
well, anyway, for now, you get this. a product of coffee, hum: suicide machine, and brain chemicals. that, and having no friends, ah-heh. heh. ha ha ha.


she comes to me in black flowing robes...
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yep, nuthin' much to report on this end......another rawkin' time at UMF and on the road with friends, hung out with the sister for her housewarming party, then back here to do what people say and lie in bed all day, heh......watched kill bill 1 again, seriously though. i gotta get me a samurai sword and a kawasaki, heh. or maybe just some sake, that's...
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yaharr! back on track, kind of!
yep. it is now tuesday. and oh, what a week it's been, full of weekends and chemicals and friends and a few movies and halo 2 and lonely nights and Home Movies/Venture Bros. and getting my car fixed and learning that my car's not actually fixed and the wiring in my electric guitar getting several kinds of fucked up...
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okay
so
gunna be taking a break from the compy for a bit. no more digital indulgence. gotta focus more on other, more important things. it's not a total ban though, gunna be checking up every once in awhile.....but not every day, so. there you have it.
peace, and love

ecch. what timing.
woke up this morning out of a chemical reverie, all ready to get productive, find a job......went to check my email, and discovered salon.com on my desktop......tried to put the issues out of my mind, but no luck. at least i got the dishes washed! lots of elliott smith and the beatles this morning, some sdre too. mmm. and the sound of...
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happy birthday! Lockdown begins at 2100 tonight!
don't have a president, we have a rulah "you are to be inside by nine o'clock or we will shoot ya"
ecch.
what's next--
oh wait, i know what's next.....t3h j4g3rm315t3r!!!11 w00t!



(heh)
(peace)

yaharr! it be voting day! and one day before tomorrow which is the big 2-1, sweeeeet. heh, it's probably gunna be a day of JD and not remembering how the hell i got so many bruises and cuts, w00t. and i don't start work (maybe, we'll see how the drug test goes.....ah-heh) until thursday night, so i've got time. oh yeah! and the bday present...
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every time. the hallowed words. i gotta go. talk to you later. out. and it's like. it's like. it's like.......what was in the conversation, is suddenly gone into oblivion. the floors are moving. there are dancing shadows in my peripheral vision.
it's like the severing of a hand. reaching out, touching, talking, laughing. letters in a box. webcams that never work. one final handshake and...
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