apathy

Edge of a logging road bridge legs dangling watching water bugs I'm smoking while DinDin ate dandylion leaves from a tin. Transports drove by without much of a care and watched carefully and she didnt flinch. I could see far and quiet sat through the shadows growing taller and the water freezing at night so it was time to leave for warmer places.

Would you like to see a hometown? I havent the balls to go back yet. Maybe painting a picture in your mind could help you understand. Soon, on my way to summer during winter, its completly out of the way but i will visit it again, and bring back my own photos. Here are some I found.
THIS is what it looks like if you choose to drive to the hospital during winter

And the summer..

Its small but this is the sand bar at lowtide. Where you could scout for lobsters, seals, and all sorts of whales

The packs of wild dogs, hanging with homebums, abandoned houses, freedom running through forests and animal paths climbing trees, the stories and log houses and fires, no cable or radio brown water you can drink half the time and oh the wolf packs at night. The stories I could tell you! And the way it made my thoughts what they are. I'll save it for another day.

Cities. All the same old things.
Searching for eyes that look like mine who can see the things that I cannot say... its always a search, isnt it. I ignore it. But i do like seeing those eyes from across a room. It makes me get up and leave.

I stood in front of a building with reflective mirror windows feeling alien and people walked by looking at themselves or checking their ass and I felt maybe like I was about to shatter a piece feeling this really extreme feeling until my nose violently started bleeding down my face without warning and I smiled too, cause now I felt what they felt but i'll bet they dont see their side as I do and why this was the same.