i rarely remember my dreams.
i had a dream last night that a mother figure was very angry with me, or more that she loathed me. She represented my real mother, but she wasn't her. Her skin was caramel colored, wrapped tightly around her body, and she had coarse dark hair.
My brother was there, too, at one point, but he was a little kid. Actually, i think i was a little kid too, maybe around the age of 10. i was in a swim suit, i think, outside in a small yard with a tiny swimming pool, and there was a small white metal fence around the back and apple trees or something. i remember there being flowers in the trees, and they were small as well. Everything was small, like i was a giant there. There was a man outside the fence, but i didn't talk to him. He was just watching, not pervertedly or anything, just watching.
There was a buzzing sound, and a swarm of bees or yellow jackets was coming towards me. i tried to run into the house, or get out of their way, they seemed to be in such a hurry, but there was a chair and table in the way, and they landed on me, covering my back. They tickled and made me feel warm, but they still stung me. So i jumped into the tiny pool and hid from them under the water. Then i had terrible marks all over my back and on my arms and one of my hands.
i tried to show my mother to get her to help me, but she didn't seem to care.
"To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development (unless my dream was an opposite because it was negative?).
To dream of your childhood, indicates your wish to return to a life where you had little responsibility and worries. It also represents innocence. Alternatively, it suggests that certain aspects of your childhood has not yet been integrated into your adult personality. Or on the other hand, some childhood anxiety has yet to be resolved in your adult life.
To see a pool of water in your dream, indicates that you need to understand and deal with your emotions. You need to dive right in. Alternatively, a pool may indicate your need for cleansing. You need to wash away the past.
To dream that someone or something is smaller than usual, represents feelings of insignificance, helplessness and unworthiness.
To dream that you are stung by a bee, signifies unexpected misfortune. You will be surrounded by trouble and severely reprimanded."
Tomorrow, i am driving the 2 hours back home. My boyfriend is running away from me to go to Chicago, Illinois. Everytime i tell someone that, they ask, "Why would he do that?"
It makes me so mad when they ask. i guess i'm expected to try to make him stay. He's not going to be gone forever.
i am a very selfless person towards the people i care about. He got an appartment and stayed in that city because of his exgirlfriend, who left him because she "wasn't happy anymore". Aparently she just wanted him to buy her things.
i honestly don't understand how she couldn't be happy with him.
i don't want to be upset when he leaves, i know i will be, but i'll try not to let him see that. i want him to do what he wants, and i want him to be happy. He said he'll be there tomorrow just for me.
Aparently i'm going to find a graveyard in the middle of nowhere with a guy i used to go to school with Saturday night. i never really spoke to him much, he seems a little intimidating to me. i had a creative writing class with him in high school.
Sometimes i think he's like a vampire. He's eloquent and verbose. He aparently doesn't sleep a lot. i think he's kind of pale, too. But i know he's not a vampire, those aren't real...
right?
i had a dream last night that a mother figure was very angry with me, or more that she loathed me. She represented my real mother, but she wasn't her. Her skin was caramel colored, wrapped tightly around her body, and she had coarse dark hair.
My brother was there, too, at one point, but he was a little kid. Actually, i think i was a little kid too, maybe around the age of 10. i was in a swim suit, i think, outside in a small yard with a tiny swimming pool, and there was a small white metal fence around the back and apple trees or something. i remember there being flowers in the trees, and they were small as well. Everything was small, like i was a giant there. There was a man outside the fence, but i didn't talk to him. He was just watching, not pervertedly or anything, just watching.
There was a buzzing sound, and a swarm of bees or yellow jackets was coming towards me. i tried to run into the house, or get out of their way, they seemed to be in such a hurry, but there was a chair and table in the way, and they landed on me, covering my back. They tickled and made me feel warm, but they still stung me. So i jumped into the tiny pool and hid from them under the water. Then i had terrible marks all over my back and on my arms and one of my hands.
i tried to show my mother to get her to help me, but she didn't seem to care.
"To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development (unless my dream was an opposite because it was negative?).
To dream of your childhood, indicates your wish to return to a life where you had little responsibility and worries. It also represents innocence. Alternatively, it suggests that certain aspects of your childhood has not yet been integrated into your adult personality. Or on the other hand, some childhood anxiety has yet to be resolved in your adult life.
To see a pool of water in your dream, indicates that you need to understand and deal with your emotions. You need to dive right in. Alternatively, a pool may indicate your need for cleansing. You need to wash away the past.
To dream that someone or something is smaller than usual, represents feelings of insignificance, helplessness and unworthiness.
To dream that you are stung by a bee, signifies unexpected misfortune. You will be surrounded by trouble and severely reprimanded."
Tomorrow, i am driving the 2 hours back home. My boyfriend is running away from me to go to Chicago, Illinois. Everytime i tell someone that, they ask, "Why would he do that?"
It makes me so mad when they ask. i guess i'm expected to try to make him stay. He's not going to be gone forever.
i am a very selfless person towards the people i care about. He got an appartment and stayed in that city because of his exgirlfriend, who left him because she "wasn't happy anymore". Aparently she just wanted him to buy her things.
i honestly don't understand how she couldn't be happy with him.
i don't want to be upset when he leaves, i know i will be, but i'll try not to let him see that. i want him to do what he wants, and i want him to be happy. He said he'll be there tomorrow just for me.
Aparently i'm going to find a graveyard in the middle of nowhere with a guy i used to go to school with Saturday night. i never really spoke to him much, he seems a little intimidating to me. i had a creative writing class with him in high school.
Sometimes i think he's like a vampire. He's eloquent and verbose. He aparently doesn't sleep a lot. i think he's kind of pale, too. But i know he's not a vampire, those aren't real...
right?
doomy:
Wrong!
doomy:
(Only joking!) 