apandaondrugs

After royally fucking up my last relationship. Being there for her as a friend was already hard especially after hurting her so much by lying to her and helping her through it. Telling her to take a chance and let someone else in when I still love her deeply is so hard. I don't know how to do this I'm telling her it'll be okay and to go after some other guy when I wish she would give me a chance I know she won't after everything but just I want her happy. It sucks it hurts me but I just know moving on past me would be best for her because I caused so much pain to her. I just had to put this up somewhere to let someone know anyone and yes I've told her how I still feel about her just wouldn't be right because I don't deserve her she deserves much much better than me.