There are so many things that I want to learn how to do, and I'll probably never have time to do it all. I feel like I'm over the hill at 25 or something. I know I need to get over that. I mean, even J.T. LeRoy isn't really 25, right?
This weird feeling like my life has somehow passed me by because I've done nothing except fuck around since I graduated. I've let years pass doing nothing but working to subsist. And that's crap. I'm not the kind of person who will really be happy just making a living.
I'm not even writing complete sentences.
I want to learn to sing, though I'll never have a real voice. I want to learn to belly dance and join a burlesque troupe and act. I want to fucking DO SOMETHING. I'm so tired of this crap.
Ok. Enough SG journal-ing. I need to go do some real writing.
This weird feeling like my life has somehow passed me by because I've done nothing except fuck around since I graduated. I've let years pass doing nothing but working to subsist. And that's crap. I'm not the kind of person who will really be happy just making a living.
I'm not even writing complete sentences.
I want to learn to sing, though I'll never have a real voice. I want to learn to belly dance and join a burlesque troupe and act. I want to fucking DO SOMETHING. I'm so tired of this crap.
Ok. Enough SG journal-ing. I need to go do some real writing.
coming out of your glands.
YOU CAN do all of those things. So go / start.
I don't think it starts on that island, but who knows.
There is going to be classes, and support systems,
and more good SG people -- Siv and Gadget --
certainly, and more, in PA than could be near you
now.
Isolation breeds isolation. Break down that door.
DragoD