anywayyouneedme

Mmm... Everytime I Die is playing at the Ottobar on April 2nd but I told James I'd go to Macrock with him and that's the 2nd and 3rd. ::sigh:: I really wanted to go because I thought it was gonna be outside but James said he thinks it's inside. Which sucks... and I have to save money for a hotel room, which also sucks. And I'll be missing ETID for the second time. I don't know what to do.

I got fucked up last night and sat around my house. I think dex is better if I'm with Lisa. It's nice to be alone but... I like making contact of some sort with someone else when I'm on it... and so I was left to cuddle with myself. But I drew some really pretty pictures... and played with some pictures of me and they're really pretty. I think I'm gonna use one for my picture on here. I hate how this entry is just... a recap of events and not about my feelings.

I'm sort of... iono right now. It's... something, I'm not sure what... something is bothering me... and I don't want to sit still but what else am I going to do? I really want to buy some CDs and new shoes and spring clothes, but I have no money. Fuck I need a job so badly. This laziness and lack of motivation is cyclic, they feed on each other... nothing will get done because I'm too lazy to do anything and I could change that by getting a job but I'm too lazy to go look for one and too lazy to commit.