anyanka_____

Ok, so it was the summer of 1998, I was in Paris sitting in my hotel room with my friend watching european Mtv...(it's very different from american Mtv....they actually still play music videos over there ...and most of them are bands that have not made it over in the states yet as well) So anyway, I'm watching Mtv and suddenly I see this video come on.....it's beautiful, the music, the singer, the cool blues and bright white light then fading into blackness.....Ville Vallo walks out of these dark shadows and sings this haunting song.....

we are so young... our lives have just begun... but already we are considering escape from this world...we've waited for so long for this moment to come...so anxious to be together...together in death...won't you die tonight for love....
I see this video, hear this music, and I feel I have changed. It was breath takingly beautiful, I knew I had never seen this band in the US, but I decided I had to find out more. So I did. Turned out they were a Finnish band called HIM and they had just released their breakthough album in Europe. So I ran to the record store so find the record...razorblade romance but they didn't have it, in fact, no one even knew what I was talking about.....and in Paris they speak english so it wasn't the language barrier. I was so frustrated, the record had not yet made it as far as france ...and I knew there was no way in hell it would be in America when I got home. However, I thought behaps sound garden would be able to special order it when I got back, they couldn't even locate what record or band I was talking about...more frustration! So the next year I go to Italy for a week and a half with my same friend and I decide I will find HIM in the record store or burst. It took me the entire trip and like every record store we passed, but I got it! I listened to it on repeat for days....it took me two years to locate and buy this record but I finally got it! Him was my secret band, no one knew who they were, I'd play them in the car and people would be like..."wow, who's this?"

Ville Vallo was this amazing, beautiful singer I had in my adolecence fallen totally inlove with his voice, his words, his face, his style....everything about him was beautiful...and no one else in America knew who he was...I felt so lucky and wanted more of this secret band. I graduated high school and went on another trip to Europe, got the next album, not as amazing as razorblade romance, but still very good. A couple years go by and one day I walk into Hot Topic to see what silly t shirts they have in at the moment, and to my total shocked amazment I see a heartagram..I grab it and look at the back....it reads "HIM" in big gold letters. I feel so torn. I'm so happy for the band that they made it over here, making it in America for a band that's not from here is a big deal, but they have become a product of Hot Topic teeny bopper goth kids, and I now feel a small twinge of bitterness. This was my secret band...no one else knew them here..no one else had to wait and track down the record for two years before they got to sit down and listen to it. I was so mad my secret had been revealed in the worst way. And although this meant I too could buy HIM merchandise and find the records more easily, a piece of me felt like it had died...I suppose it was my pride. Well, a couple more years have passed and last week I opened the city paper to see that HIM is playing at the 9:30 Club....I nearly peed myself I was so excited.....THEN.....my boyfriend L informed me that he has a connection and he might be able to GET ME BACK STAGE TO MEET HIM.....I don't even know what I'm going to do if I get to meet this band.....they have been something so near and dear to my heart for such a long time..this goes beyond meeting Ville Vallo in person and wanting to cry like one of those stupid girls at a Beatles concert. I don't even know......words can't express how much I want this.....how much this would mean to me.....I think it would be one of the single most amazing moments of my life though. I'm speechless to even think about it......but I think it would look something like this....