antrdunc

I've been bad. A bad student. I have made some major mistakes in studying, going to class, going to class high as a kite, sleeping in class, going home because parking fucking sucks, lying to professors, failing classes, withdrawing from class, picking the wrong major and deciding it in the third semester of being in the program, and passing the toughest sophomore review at Herron after the second semester of the program. Just to name a few.

I am what my fellow classifier girlfriend calls an ENFP. It's my rare gift, being in the small percentile some social group takes up on Myers-Briggs chart, and their projections of what I'm made of in my dome are so goddamn accurrate. I almost cried on a few paragraphs that mirror'd traits I carry and many did not understand, but it was written so plainly I started to feel dumb. The negative trait's I carry MAKE me procrastinate and not finish amazing projects that take too long to make.

I wander for excitement, my girlfriend sits peacefully reasoning out her duties. It turns out, we were the exact opposites on a 16 combination chart. Kind of like "corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces".

Academic probation, how'd it come to this. I already explained all that. Though, there is now hope. I just found out the grade replacement wasn't automatic and I never was on probation, or wouldn't have been, if I had only known the nessescity of telling my advisor that I passed some classes I previously failed. My GPA will go nearly half a point up on the 4 point scale, getting me far above the required score.

Now that I'm finding inner thoughts clearer and brighter, the projects have a passionate sense of duty I create by spicing up my method and work flow on the stages and layers of my work. Ideas are flowing out throughout projects, the sythesis of work and imagination constantly getting revamped during the process.

Collaborative thought process with good people is my absolute favorite now. I can put my intuitiion, compassion, and creativity into someone else and in turn get it back from them. We become part of eachothers work and to me just a little teamwork can make the initial blurry thought of the "finished work" into a clearer path of making it more explorative in creation, and social in presentation.

I'm pretty good at knowing who I trust at school and also make friends with professors who like me no matter my grade or attendance. Some really show great care in my well being, and I seriously have nothing but love for them all. I'm usually just up too late and can't get the alarm to wake me up. Hell, I was just failing a class, withdrew, and the professor was upset to see me go.

Feeling pretty good all of a sudden, and tomorrow is going to be a day without sleep. I probably do this once every few weeks. Sleep deprevation euphoria some of my friends call it. Dreaming awake is almost like the complete opposite of lucid dreaming. In some way's it's the same, because it is reality, feels like a dream, and I can be in control. On the other hand I'm awake and my body is forcing memory storage and making me hear noises. I hope I'm not on register tonight, but couldn't be worse when I did it after my first (sleepless) acid experience.

If you just read this, you're insane. Thank you.