antirock

so i've been through the fire a couple times now. it's always the exact same thing that burns me.
i get caught falling for an emotionally unavailable girl in a ridiculously short period of time.
a long and severe deprivation from relationships only prepares you to fall hard, head first.
you never know just how you feel until you get that bombing in your chest where you can't breathe and then you feel kind of weird and numb like.


well where the fuck is that girl, the one for me who fell in love and gave me her heart months ago, crawling back to me on hands and knees now after trying somthing new that just dind't feel right?
fucking nonexistant is where. i'm not love, i'm always something new.


fuck last, nice guys never finish at all. they quit and go home as soon as they get left behind and there's nobody around to see them to the end. so what if this one was just a 5k fun run, i'm fucking last just the same.
but they can't help but at least be nice to a nice guy. so the whole while that the faces get farther away and silhouettes fade into the distance all you can see is smiles. at least they always leave you smiling.

fucking shoot me.
[chipmunk]