antiprincess

I'm still waiting eagerly for that point in my life where I can accept the things I cannot change.

So, I know it's been awhile. Shit did, in fact, happen.

My dad slit his wrist about a week and a half after my last entry. His roommate found him, alive in a pool of blood several hours later. He spent the next weeks in the hospital and psych ward. I visited him as often as possible, since my sister could only make it up...
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These are my deepest, darkest thoughts that have been living in my head like a parasite, devouring the happiness in every quiet moment and I need them OUT.

I think my daddy might be dying. He had diabetes, high blood pressure, emphasema and schizophernia. None of that is as important as that it seems like he's decided he's done with living.

I went to see...
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Today, I am taking a sick day. I don't remember the last time I took a real sick day, with the entire plan for the day being to take it easy and get better.

I had wisdom tooth surgery this morning. I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be. I think that was because too looking forward to being without pain again. Tony...
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More or less complete and utter happiness makes for boring journals, I know and apologize.

It's so funny, I've been wanting this proposal for what seems like so very long now, and now that I've gotten it, it seems like I have nothing left to wish for. In a good way. And while I've always been good at enjoying the present, it seems like I've...
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Do I know my boy or what? He just doesn't know how to disappoint me, God bless him.

Last night there were sparklers and a ring and the love of my life down on one knee. And now I am 24 and have everything I'll ever need in life. This is my happily ever after. How ironic, seeing as 2 years ago I didn't even...
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Eeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know that I have ever wanted anything more in my life than I want to marry this boy. And more importantly at the moment, for him to ask me. And I am terrified that if it doesn't happen tomorrow, it won't be for almost another year, and I just might explode then.

You see, we've talked about this whole proposal thing, and the...
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Today (2/5) was our one year anniversary. Can you believe it? A whole fuckin' year? Tomorrow we're gonna go get matching tattoos. Eek! And we almost just bought me a ring online, but it was expensive and Tony's uncle is a jeweler, so he's gonna try and get a deal. And I'm drunk. . Double-eek!

We kinda sorta maybe looked at engagement rings today.