I know you're sick of hearing about this - but SG is the only journal I have. Thank you all for your insights, shared experiences, patience and encouragement. I think I am going to cry just thinking about how good you SGers are to me during my recovery. Danielle, thank you for coming back into my life.
Weekends are particularly hard without her. Severus is going to kill me for saying that it was 3 weeks ago today that I sent her the break-up email. She hates when I live in the past. And she's right, of course. And also beautiful
I'm sure the ex told everyone who would listen that I was an asshole to break up with her that way. Before we started dating, she and I had lunch a few times a week. She was married then and there was no romantic gestures on my part. She was just cool and fun. She told me about this one guy she dated a few times when she left her husband (the first time) - she said she finally had sex with him and the next day he broke up with her via email. I remember her saying some nasty things about him. In retrospect, I think of him as much smarter than me.
She actually said to me then "It's hard to get me into bed." Hard like breathing.
She did know all the right things to say. She was a pro.
Today I have been angry, hurt and sad. I'm the latter now. Trilobyte nailed it when he said I am just going through the motions of life. I look forward to going to bed in hopes that tomorrow I will feel better.
I just want 5 minutes of happiness.
All of you - please keep up what you are doing. Now I'm going to have that cry before my friend Andy shows up.
Weekends are particularly hard without her. Severus is going to kill me for saying that it was 3 weeks ago today that I sent her the break-up email. She hates when I live in the past. And she's right, of course. And also beautiful
I'm sure the ex told everyone who would listen that I was an asshole to break up with her that way. Before we started dating, she and I had lunch a few times a week. She was married then and there was no romantic gestures on my part. She was just cool and fun. She told me about this one guy she dated a few times when she left her husband (the first time) - she said she finally had sex with him and the next day he broke up with her via email. I remember her saying some nasty things about him. In retrospect, I think of him as much smarter than me.
She actually said to me then "It's hard to get me into bed." Hard like breathing.
She did know all the right things to say. She was a pro.
Today I have been angry, hurt and sad. I'm the latter now. Trilobyte nailed it when he said I am just going through the motions of life. I look forward to going to bed in hopes that tomorrow I will feel better.
I just want 5 minutes of happiness.
All of you - please keep up what you are doing. Now I'm going to have that cry before my friend Andy shows up.
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severus:
And if I were in town I'd say let's go get tacos, I need to get the REAL thing you know.
severus:
Ahhh see you there then, someday. Well. If you haven't moved of course. I hope your night was OK. It's 12 pm here, I'm eating a vegetable burger someone made me and I fell asleep like... 5. My dog has been slacking at my feet all morning too, perfect little feet warmer. It's brrrr here, someone said yesterday that it was sunny but "cold" in LA. Yeah, sure. I bet it's SOOO cold