My first day of therapy today. I think I overwhelmed the poor fucker. He's a student - not a PhD.
Pretty much all he said was "Wow. I imagine you feel horrible about this" and "You took a step by coming here."
I cried the whole time.
I have been uncomfortable sleeping on my side of the bed without her there - and uncomfortable sleeping on her side. She and I rearranged my bedroom together in August. So, I just moved the whole damn bed back to where it was before. We'll see if that helps.
I am angry that she never put any effort into the relationship. After watching The Graduate, she asked me if I would fight for her - if I would stop her wedding like Dustin Hoffman. I told her no. If she didn't want to be with me enough to marry another man, then why should I bother?
But I did fight for her - I gave her lots of chances - and she just took advantage of me.
EVERYONE is telling me to let her go. LET HER GO.
I so want to.
Tomorrow I will write a positve entry. I promise.
Pretty much all he said was "Wow. I imagine you feel horrible about this" and "You took a step by coming here."
I cried the whole time.
I have been uncomfortable sleeping on my side of the bed without her there - and uncomfortable sleeping on her side. She and I rearranged my bedroom together in August. So, I just moved the whole damn bed back to where it was before. We'll see if that helps.
I am angry that she never put any effort into the relationship. After watching The Graduate, she asked me if I would fight for her - if I would stop her wedding like Dustin Hoffman. I told her no. If she didn't want to be with me enough to marry another man, then why should I bother?
But I did fight for her - I gave her lots of chances - and she just took advantage of me.
EVERYONE is telling me to let her go. LET HER GO.
I so want to.
Tomorrow I will write a positve entry. I promise.
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pb:
don't write something positive if you're not feeling it. let yourself get it all out as it comes. this is YOUR journal, your place ot bleed, your place of catharsis. becoming friends with the pain is all that will help.
eric_j:
Thank you, sir. Nice to be back. How're things?