4 days after I cut the line completely after finding out for certain about all the cheating and lying.
I don't think I've ever met a worse person in my life - I wish I'd never met her.
Trying not to wonder why she's so sick. Trying not to think about the fantasy I was living in while believing that she actually loved me - all the while fucking 6 (confirmed) other guys.
She lives around the corner from me. This is really hard. I have never hurt this bad in my life. I know it will pass - but I'm going to run into her lots and that makes me shake.
I need help letting go of romanticizing "what could have been." It couldn't have been anything - it was nothing the whole time we were together. Although it didn't feel like it to me. Which is, of course, what she wanted.
I know she was never "the one." She never was. Even though she wanted me to marry her.
She's just an attention whore. And an alcoholic. And a dozen other unsavory things. Hell, she even told me she is a bad person and I deserve better. I should have listened.
I hate the person she actually is.
And still I am crippled. And weak. And sick when I think of all the people I know I will run into that she has slept with - whether they knew we were "together" or not.
I'm sorry I'm not responding to you all. I miss you Cineman and Severus. We will talk again. HI to new friends and old.
I've never thought of myself as a person with low self-esteem. But I must be for holding onto her for so long.
I guess only time and distance will heal this. I would love to move out of state - but clearly that can't happen.
But if anyone can help me - even a little - or knows someone who can -- please. Please do.
I don't think I've ever met a worse person in my life - I wish I'd never met her.
Trying not to wonder why she's so sick. Trying not to think about the fantasy I was living in while believing that she actually loved me - all the while fucking 6 (confirmed) other guys.
She lives around the corner from me. This is really hard. I have never hurt this bad in my life. I know it will pass - but I'm going to run into her lots and that makes me shake.
I need help letting go of romanticizing "what could have been." It couldn't have been anything - it was nothing the whole time we were together. Although it didn't feel like it to me. Which is, of course, what she wanted.
I know she was never "the one." She never was. Even though she wanted me to marry her.
She's just an attention whore. And an alcoholic. And a dozen other unsavory things. Hell, she even told me she is a bad person and I deserve better. I should have listened.
I hate the person she actually is.
And still I am crippled. And weak. And sick when I think of all the people I know I will run into that she has slept with - whether they knew we were "together" or not.
I'm sorry I'm not responding to you all. I miss you Cineman and Severus. We will talk again. HI to new friends and old.
I've never thought of myself as a person with low self-esteem. But I must be for holding onto her for so long.
I guess only time and distance will heal this. I would love to move out of state - but clearly that can't happen.
But if anyone can help me - even a little - or knows someone who can -- please. Please do.
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You'll be fine. For sure. It will just take some time, but you know it, so hang in there, and try and do as much good stuff as possible. Don't think too much.