I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
I'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes I can see right through myself
Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn't really matter anymore
(no it doesn't really matter anymore)
No it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes I am alone but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell
I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself, yeah
And I just made you up to hurt myself
And it worked.
Yes it did!
There is no you
There is only me
There is no you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me
Only
Well the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone, I kept picking at the scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through
Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be, and I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why, now, now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty
On the inside
Only
so i gave my resume 2 seven restrunts two they were all in the woodfeild area. i hope one of them calls me back and soon bc i want a other job.
bc i feel that i'm losing myself it getting hard 2 focus. i feel i've lost my way again sometime i wish i didn't quit ihop even if they didn't treat me right.
the last 2 weakend i've getting 2 meet 2 cool ass band the 1st one was disturbed they pretty cool 2 meet them & were nice
and the 2nd one as COHEED AND CAMBRIA they play a three song set witch kick ass and then they signed shit i got the new cd signed and the cd rocks
i've felt that i've become a frail limb that would cut off and throw away. it became some ppl i care about have cut me out of life. i've try 2 stay in there life but it hard bc i work & go out but i still try 2 make time 2 talk 2 them all.
I know the tears you're crying in your bed at night alone
I've cried those tears a thousand times
But those shallow empty songs about suicide are patronizing
You've got to learn to face your fears
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away
Do you think I'll be less lonely
God I pray that I'm not lonely
When I'm dead I won't feel any pain
And when I'm dead I won't feel anything
I know the songs you're singing, saying nothing loud and clear
I've heard that song a thousand times
But your shallow empty lies about suicide are patronizing
You can never understand what I feel
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away
Do you think I'll be less lonely
God I pray that I'm not lonely
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
Fading away
And well you might say
I'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes I can see right through myself
Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn't really matter anymore
(no it doesn't really matter anymore)
No it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes I am alone but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell
I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself
I just made you up to hurt myself, yeah
And I just made you up to hurt myself
And it worked.
Yes it did!
There is no you
There is only me
There is no you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me
Only
Well the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone, I kept picking at the scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through
Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be, and I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why, now, now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty
On the inside
Only
so i gave my resume 2 seven restrunts two they were all in the woodfeild area. i hope one of them calls me back and soon bc i want a other job.
bc i feel that i'm losing myself it getting hard 2 focus. i feel i've lost my way again sometime i wish i didn't quit ihop even if they didn't treat me right.
the last 2 weakend i've getting 2 meet 2 cool ass band the 1st one was disturbed they pretty cool 2 meet them & were nice
and the 2nd one as COHEED AND CAMBRIA they play a three song set witch kick ass and then they signed shit i got the new cd signed and the cd rocks
i've felt that i've become a frail limb that would cut off and throw away. it became some ppl i care about have cut me out of life. i've try 2 stay in there life but it hard bc i work & go out but i still try 2 make time 2 talk 2 them all.
I know the tears you're crying in your bed at night alone
I've cried those tears a thousand times
But those shallow empty songs about suicide are patronizing
You've got to learn to face your fears
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away
Do you think I'll be less lonely
God I pray that I'm not lonely
When I'm dead I won't feel any pain
And when I'm dead I won't feel anything
I know the songs you're singing, saying nothing loud and clear
I've heard that song a thousand times
But your shallow empty lies about suicide are patronizing
You can never understand what I feel
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away
Do you think I'll be less lonely
God I pray that I'm not lonely
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
When I'm dead
rhys:
i'm going to see NIN again this month... possibly twice. yay.