antennatoheaven

So I'm home, back in Billings. There isn't much here anymore that particularly makes me happy-- I just enjoy seeing my family and old friends. I miss a lot of things now and perhaps I dwell on all that which cannot be changed, but obviously I do, and coming home now is even more melancholy without Megan. I remember last Thanksgiving and how much fun we had meeting each other's families. It seems so long ago when all that took place. Jesus Christ I'm really missing her right now. I missing a lot of things/people in my life. I can only hope Megan feels like shit, because I sure as hell do. I was laying on my bed, just listening to my newly arrived Migala cd and thinking-- too much thinking. Christ I'm depressed. I really want to talk to her, but I know if I do I will somehow come out of the conversation longing for her even longer if she is grief-stricken and still single. I don't know though. I hate this so much. It's nearly been four months since the break up...I sure hope the next four are better than these have been.

PS-- Husker Du's "Diane" is fucking incredible.