ansley

I've been meaning to check in forever.

so much change over the last few months. job. relationships. home. everything feels in flux. radiant and gloomy. yesturday I was shopping in my favourite hippy organic grocery store and the clerk told me that astrologically we are all in the birth canal in our darkest days. now. I'm not one for over the counter prophecies or over priced hippy grocery stores. but it made me think about how heavy the world feels these days. and not just in my community of friends who struggle with the day to day logistics of being alive and not just the dynamics and social conditionings of gender, violence, poverty, addictions that colour my work life but the politics of the larger world feel more imminent. emphatic. or maybe I've just started listening to more CBC. which make me a tragic combination of hopeful and hopeless.

maybe I need to lay of the whiskey. I don't know.

either way.

The light outside my window is a glowing dusky grey. all the crows are flying in hoards to their home east of the city. I don't even have to look to know that they are. I'm single for the first time in 6 years and I'm finding it so thrilling. so scary. so utterally out of my frame of reference.

Dating tips. anyone?