Disclaimer: I'm sort of tipsy at the moment. You were warned!
So, here I am. At a "kegger." I'm 23, soon to be 24, and it's my first one. A bonified (spelling?) college kegger, and I'm being antisocial. I'm in the basement talking to you now.
I don't know why I feel the need to shy from society, or even from company for that matter. Perhaps in a stranger's company, I feel the need to perform. To become the social butterfly which is quite unlike the loner I truly am. To be interesting. To be unique.
In social situations I feel the need to be larger than life. I become the actress. The debutante. The diva. Is this just an act, or another facet or my otherwise strange multifaceted personality?
I've often thought that I have multiple personalities that I'm always aware of, and in control of. It's incredibly strange. Do any of you feel the need to become something other than yourself, for the sheer action of feeling like you're living another life? For just one night?
I don't mean the dream of living out a fantasy, or having the anonymity of being an online personality. Is this something that's done often? Something where you can be many people to many others?
I don't think I'd be myself unless I was many other versions of myself.
So, here I am. At a "kegger." I'm 23, soon to be 24, and it's my first one. A bonified (spelling?) college kegger, and I'm being antisocial. I'm in the basement talking to you now.
I don't know why I feel the need to shy from society, or even from company for that matter. Perhaps in a stranger's company, I feel the need to perform. To become the social butterfly which is quite unlike the loner I truly am. To be interesting. To be unique.
In social situations I feel the need to be larger than life. I become the actress. The debutante. The diva. Is this just an act, or another facet or my otherwise strange multifaceted personality?
I've often thought that I have multiple personalities that I'm always aware of, and in control of. It's incredibly strange. Do any of you feel the need to become something other than yourself, for the sheer action of feeling like you're living another life? For just one night?
I don't mean the dream of living out a fantasy, or having the anonymity of being an online personality. Is this something that's done often? Something where you can be many people to many others?
I don't think I'd be myself unless I was many other versions of myself.
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trust me i know the feeling, i'm on my 3rd camera at the moment, well it's not even mine i guess
but digital cameras in my experience get stolen often.
it sucks sometimes cuz the pics in there are worth more.
for ex. this girl at warped this year went backstage and met her fav bands and then got her camera stolen
she didn't care about the $300 camera as much as the visually captured memories that she will now never share.
argh indeed.
i hate it when people steal things, it sucks being a victim
but on the bright side
ya it was nice meeting you.
the pics will be up shortly, all the ones i have of you though have major red eye, i'll try to get rid of it, but haven't tried yet
soon sometime though
I have more friends online, than I do in real life.
Tane