So I answered the question of bi? straight? or gay? today and so here's my answer and a lil more babbling about it. Had to cut my answer a lil short cuz I started to babble.
I'm not sure.... I guess I could be called bi-curious Damn upbringing has me all confused. I like females, but Mommy dearest has pounded it into my head that same sex love is wrong so I went with the only other option I had which was guys. Don't get me wrong guys, you are kool people, but I kinda want to laugh every time I see one of you naked. I think male genitals look funny. Especially when at attention..lol.... Sorry was picturing it lol.... I've always had a fascination with breasts. My mom has told me that when I was little I would walk up to people and ask them for boobies. Mind you I wasn't breast fed, so that's not the reason. Women are beautiful and always smell good and are soft. Guys have the muscles and that musky smell that I like, but women always smell so sweet. Never been with a female though, came close, but mom's voice popped into my head"I'll disown you lil girl" So I stopped what I was doing and haven't gotten close ever again So now I appear straight and blush whenever someone asks me why I haven't fulfilled my curiosity.
So why haven't I fulfilled my curiosity yet? I'm well over 18,23 to be exact, and I don't live at mom's house anymore, and I don't tell her everything as is, So what's my problem now? I've become overly self conscious, especially about my private area. I don't have experience with the female body, not even myself. I have tried it out on several occasions, but I just don't get anything out of it. Also I'm SUPER shy. Okay well you wouldn't be able to tell just by reading the crap i ramble about, but really I am shy, open as all hell, but shy. Anyways, so here I am with my boyfriend who would absolutely LOVE it if I'd just come out of my shell I discover my sexuality. He's just hoping I won't prefer females to him. Yet another reason for postponing giving it ago as well as not having a beautiful women who would take charge of the situation ;P I love my man to death, but for sometime now I just haven't been interested in him sexually and have caught myself admiring females more often. So what if I am more interested in females, I don't want my guy to be put on the sidelines. Although he is allowed to have "buddies", female friends with benefits. I am too, but we haven't gotten to really use it. Well I take that back. He got to with one of our friends, who I totally wanted, but was too much of a pussy to do anything bout, even though both her and him kept saying 'when you gonna let us play with you?' My answer would be a blush and looking away with a kool-aid smile.
So yeah I'm too caught up in some new voting for my all time love Mary Jane. Legalize it!!!![wink](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/wink.6a5555b139e7.gif)
I'm not sure.... I guess I could be called bi-curious Damn upbringing has me all confused. I like females, but Mommy dearest has pounded it into my head that same sex love is wrong so I went with the only other option I had which was guys. Don't get me wrong guys, you are kool people, but I kinda want to laugh every time I see one of you naked. I think male genitals look funny. Especially when at attention..lol.... Sorry was picturing it lol.... I've always had a fascination with breasts. My mom has told me that when I was little I would walk up to people and ask them for boobies. Mind you I wasn't breast fed, so that's not the reason. Women are beautiful and always smell good and are soft. Guys have the muscles and that musky smell that I like, but women always smell so sweet. Never been with a female though, came close, but mom's voice popped into my head"I'll disown you lil girl" So I stopped what I was doing and haven't gotten close ever again So now I appear straight and blush whenever someone asks me why I haven't fulfilled my curiosity.
So why haven't I fulfilled my curiosity yet? I'm well over 18,23 to be exact, and I don't live at mom's house anymore, and I don't tell her everything as is, So what's my problem now? I've become overly self conscious, especially about my private area. I don't have experience with the female body, not even myself. I have tried it out on several occasions, but I just don't get anything out of it. Also I'm SUPER shy. Okay well you wouldn't be able to tell just by reading the crap i ramble about, but really I am shy, open as all hell, but shy. Anyways, so here I am with my boyfriend who would absolutely LOVE it if I'd just come out of my shell I discover my sexuality. He's just hoping I won't prefer females to him. Yet another reason for postponing giving it ago as well as not having a beautiful women who would take charge of the situation ;P I love my man to death, but for sometime now I just haven't been interested in him sexually and have caught myself admiring females more often. So what if I am more interested in females, I don't want my guy to be put on the sidelines. Although he is allowed to have "buddies", female friends with benefits. I am too, but we haven't gotten to really use it. Well I take that back. He got to with one of our friends, who I totally wanted, but was too much of a pussy to do anything bout, even though both her and him kept saying 'when you gonna let us play with you?' My answer would be a blush and looking away with a kool-aid smile.
So yeah I'm too caught up in some new voting for my all time love Mary Jane. Legalize it!!!
![wink](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/wink.6a5555b139e7.gif)
di_xia:
thanks sweety