Wednesday Jun 23, 2004

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Ah. I've slingshot through the drama and back past it and around the corner and come to the point where I'm not so much melodramatic angsty as horny irritated and apathetic.

Reading that last post I don't even understand it because it's somehow unrelated to the situation now. I'm not er, dating that guy anymore? If I ever was. Apparently I had our relationship misconstrued... Now I'm just fucking him, and trying to make him feel as used as possible.

It doesn't make me a good person. But right now it's the only way to hold on to a shred of pathetic sanity. If I were a good person I'd say fuck off. but I'm weak and need sex and the echo of love. So.

::beats head against wall for using phrases such as "echo of love"::

::reminds self of good things and stops whining::
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with_forevers:
upon seeing where you live, i can't help but wonder if we've seen each other in real life. since you have no pictures up, i cannot tell. but i do have friends in newmarket, and i have been to several parties there. i wonder if maybe you were at any of them? it wouldn't surprise me. it's a small world. and even if we have never been at the same place at the same time, we may have common friends. who knows!
psychicgoldfish:
I do that too. It's like, I want a real relationship, but I take whatever I can get. I need to get some self esteem. Do you know where to buy that? I remember them practically throwing it around during my public junior high years... Fuck, they shoved it down my throat at least 5 times before lunch... but anyhow...

Just stumbled into your profile. I adore your Serial Experiments Lain profile pic. I adore Lain.

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