Wheeeeeew, life.
Sooo I am still unemployed, looking for a job but have one on August 29th if I don't find anything better. It is a call center and the shift is going to suck, it is from 3pm to 11:30 pm. I am really hoping to get a daytime job instead but right now while i'm looking I just need something, anything. I am going to need to live my life for me the way I want it and the way I am able to instead of letting my parents hold shit over my head. They are pretty petty and hold everything over my head and try to control me. I am living in their rental property but they walk in unannounced and say they are going to take back their old furniture even if they have no place for it. My goal is to be out by October 1st, so lets hope all goes well. =)
On the romance front things have been a battle. My ex kept taking advantage of me and went out of his way to do boyfriendy things for me but continues to distance me from everyone in his life and treat me like shit when he feels like it. After I had discussed the using many a time he continued to do it so I gave him an ultimatum. His options are either date me fully or never speak to me again. I explained he kept throwing sex and togetherness and possible future relationship plans in my face and I was too in love to stop it so apperantly neither of us can deal with being just friends. He decided to try things with me again, I am hoping and praying things go well but I am so scared he is going to smash my heart again. He needs to grow up and he said he is scared of losing his individuality being in a relationship and I promised that I wouldn't make him do anything he didn't want to do or tell him where to be or what to do, hopefully he doesn't continue to think of me as a meanie and the bad guy, I just love him and want him in my life but I know I don't need him there.
In other news, remember my friend robert I slept with and have liked for years? Well, found out lastnight that my BEST FRIEND slept with him lastnight. 1. that is a douche move on his part and 2. thanks, bitch. she knows how i like him and that we slept together, she told me the minute he started hitting on her and told me she would never do anything with him mostly because she thinks he is atrocious (she is EXTREMELY vain) and because she would never do that to me and as far as she was concerned he was "off limits". So much for that. I am pissed, upset, frustrated and baffled at the situation. Half of me never wants to speak to either of them again but half of me wants to be pissed at the boy for getting in between my friend and I. Any suggestions on how I should deal? Be passive agressive, very rude and drop them both, sit down and talk with her, really, help!?!
Sooo I am still unemployed, looking for a job but have one on August 29th if I don't find anything better. It is a call center and the shift is going to suck, it is from 3pm to 11:30 pm. I am really hoping to get a daytime job instead but right now while i'm looking I just need something, anything. I am going to need to live my life for me the way I want it and the way I am able to instead of letting my parents hold shit over my head. They are pretty petty and hold everything over my head and try to control me. I am living in their rental property but they walk in unannounced and say they are going to take back their old furniture even if they have no place for it. My goal is to be out by October 1st, so lets hope all goes well. =)
On the romance front things have been a battle. My ex kept taking advantage of me and went out of his way to do boyfriendy things for me but continues to distance me from everyone in his life and treat me like shit when he feels like it. After I had discussed the using many a time he continued to do it so I gave him an ultimatum. His options are either date me fully or never speak to me again. I explained he kept throwing sex and togetherness and possible future relationship plans in my face and I was too in love to stop it so apperantly neither of us can deal with being just friends. He decided to try things with me again, I am hoping and praying things go well but I am so scared he is going to smash my heart again. He needs to grow up and he said he is scared of losing his individuality being in a relationship and I promised that I wouldn't make him do anything he didn't want to do or tell him where to be or what to do, hopefully he doesn't continue to think of me as a meanie and the bad guy, I just love him and want him in my life but I know I don't need him there.
In other news, remember my friend robert I slept with and have liked for years? Well, found out lastnight that my BEST FRIEND slept with him lastnight. 1. that is a douche move on his part and 2. thanks, bitch. she knows how i like him and that we slept together, she told me the minute he started hitting on her and told me she would never do anything with him mostly because she thinks he is atrocious (she is EXTREMELY vain) and because she would never do that to me and as far as she was concerned he was "off limits". So much for that. I am pissed, upset, frustrated and baffled at the situation. Half of me never wants to speak to either of them again but half of me wants to be pissed at the boy for getting in between my friend and I. Any suggestions on how I should deal? Be passive agressive, very rude and drop them both, sit down and talk with her, really, help!?!