why is it so difficult to remember who we are sometimes? and once we remember, why is it even harder to simply be who we are? i was actually angry that my manager made me take all of last friday off of work. you see, i am (pathetically) a slave to an hourly wage, and thebigbadbosslady wanted me to "um, yeah, go ahead and come...
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it was midday when my phone rang.
me: "hello?"
boy: "does 425 W. 14th street make you happy?"
me: "in new york?"
boy: "yeah, new york. i thought you would recognize the address straight away. i thought it would have been a mecca for you while you were living there..."
me: "a mecca? is it a restaurant?"
boy: "no, not a restaurant." *pause* "its the...
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me: "hello?"
boy: "does 425 W. 14th street make you happy?"
me: "in new york?"
boy: "yeah, new york. i thought you would recognize the address straight away. i thought it would have been a mecca for you while you were living there..."
me: "a mecca? is it a restaurant?"
boy: "no, not a restaurant." *pause* "its the...
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stompbox:
Hi. 
battlestarlet:
yes, it does come with the buttons AND the polka dot tank underneath. it'll be so punky brewster cute.
did you get my email about smelling like hilary duff? not a great smell.
i love you.
did you get my email about smelling like hilary duff? not a great smell.
i love you.
there is no denying the truth in the old saying that what does not kill us makes us stronger, but what's so great about being strong? what do we really have to prove, and to whom, and why? i am not advocating co-dependency, but why does the world favor the "for the love of god, pull yourself together" mentality?
my friends and family are so...
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battlestarlet:
How did you get food poisening?
battlestarlet:
Oh, and one more thing... download or buy the Marie Antoinette soundtrack. The Cure + The Radio Department + The Strokes + New Order = Less of a sucky day
"You know... my son plays bass for The Bravery." Or was that Hot Hot Heat. Or was that The Killers.
"You know... my son plays bass for The Bravery." Or was that Hot Hot Heat. Or was that The Killers.
tenaciousg3:
Wow.... how did I miss this and your previous post.
There is never anything that anyone can say that makes you feel any better. There just isn't. You will always miss him. The only thing I can say is I am so sorry for your loss. Gain strength from your friends, from those that are close to you and those who are simply kind strangers. I honestly wish I could say more, something that would comfort you... I'll just say that though you are a stranger, you are in my thoughts (sending good vibes your way).
Hang in there...
-George
There is never anything that anyone can say that makes you feel any better. There just isn't. You will always miss him. The only thing I can say is I am so sorry for your loss. Gain strength from your friends, from those that are close to you and those who are simply kind strangers. I honestly wish I could say more, something that would comfort you... I'll just say that though you are a stranger, you are in my thoughts (sending good vibes your way).
Hang in there...
-George
battlestarlet:
when were those taken? they're nice.
"C. J. P., 33, of Longwood, FL passed away September 28, 2006. He was born in Kansas City, MO. He is survived by his parents and his sister."
After almost three weeks, i still cant wrap my head around the fact that i am now an only child. i dont question how it happened or why. my godlessness is neither denied nor confirmed. i cant...
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After almost three weeks, i still cant wrap my head around the fact that i am now an only child. i dont question how it happened or why. my godlessness is neither denied nor confirmed. i cant...
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battlestarlet:
I love you. Forever.
A year ago...
A year ago...
battlestarlet:
One more... he was so well hung. 
a new job in a new (and more favorite) part of the city. it has all of the things that i need at the moment and probably all of the things that i will despise in 8 months, but for now i am satisfied.
with the new job comes the harsh reality of finding a new place to live, again. i always knew that the...
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chuchulain:
Best of luck with the new job. Also, that was the hottest pole dance I've seen that I wasn't there to witness myself.
stompbox:
So then. You ever check here anymore? Hope the new job and appt. is working out okay.
at 8:15 this morning i was ripped from a peaceful post-coital slumber by the sound of my g.d. landlady vacuuming the walking stones leading to the apartment. the noise in turn roused all of the neighbor dogs, from whatever they were quietly doing, into a barking frenzy. ug! saturday mornings were invented for one reason: sleeping. not vacuuming rocks. who vacuums rocks anyway?
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battlestarlet:
OH NO! MR. BOB HARRIS!
stompbox:
Heehee.
Boys frustrate me:
He has a subtle way of making me feel like a corner or a chair. A nice little place to go to spend a some free time. A nice little piece of furniture that is pretty and comfortable and easy to move and carry around. I am not a corner or a chair, and neither is he... arms and hearts and opinions...
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He has a subtle way of making me feel like a corner or a chair. A nice little place to go to spend a some free time. A nice little piece of furniture that is pretty and comfortable and easy to move and carry around. I am not a corner or a chair, and neither is he... arms and hearts and opinions...
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stompbox:
I'd tell you that not all guys are like that, but statistics might prove me wrong. Boys frustrate me too, almost as much as girls do. 
bronte:
Thanks so much for your story...I didn't mind it was long! Poor little guy...but in the end justice was done! Well, the snake was just being a snake, but he picked the wrong bird to F*** with! I probably shoulda built "mine" a nest...gah.
Stompbox has a good point. Gad, I think back to all the winners my mom used to go for -- it's like she was going out of her way to be unhappy.
Being a guy myself and knowing a lot of guys 25-40, there does seem to be this general fear of being "tied down". I think there's this unwritten myth out there that once women reach a certain age, all they wanna do is settle down and have a family, house, dog -- the works. I do know a few guys that don't feel this way..or do, but also similarly want a family.
Guys also have the ego thing...the more women who find them attractive, the more of a man they are. It's like that with pretty much every species. The alpha male, gets all the chicks, but being an alpha male, he wants to make sure he has options...not only with mates but the option to just pick up and leave.
Ugh, I don't even remember my point anymore. I guess to make a short story long you just have to consider what your needs are and if they're being met. If they're not, move on...there are a ton of other guys/girls out there to meet. I've done the "intimate strangers" relationship before and we came to this mutual realization that it was going nowhere and we'd be better off as "friends" and that the only reason we were still together was probably out of fear of being alone. Even though we parted cordially, we never called each other again.
Ooooh, I missed that you liked Pantera before...did you see the "Behind the Music" feature on VH1? It made we wanna blow the dust off my Pantera albums and thrash my living room. woohooo!
Poor little guy...but in the end justice was done! Well, the snake was just being a snake, but he picked the wrong bird to F*** with! I probably shoulda built "mine" a nest...gah.
Stompbox has a good point. Gad, I think back to all the winners my mom used to go for -- it's like she was going out of her way to be unhappy.
Being a guy myself and knowing a lot of guys 25-40, there does seem to be this general fear of being "tied down". I think there's this unwritten myth out there that once women reach a certain age, all they wanna do is settle down and have a family, house, dog -- the works. I do know a few guys that don't feel this way..or do, but also similarly want a family.
Guys also have the ego thing...the more women who find them attractive, the more of a man they are. It's like that with pretty much every species. The alpha male, gets all the chicks, but being an alpha male, he wants to make sure he has options...not only with mates but the option to just pick up and leave.
Ugh, I don't even remember my point anymore. I guess to make a short story long you just have to consider what your needs are and if they're being met. If they're not, move on...there are a ton of other guys/girls out there to meet. I've done the "intimate strangers" relationship before and we came to this mutual realization that it was going nowhere and we'd be better off as "friends" and that the only reason we were still together was probably out of fear of being alone. Even though we parted cordially, we never called each other again.
Ooooh, I missed that you liked Pantera before...did you see the "Behind the Music" feature on VH1? It made we wanna blow the dust off my Pantera albums and thrash my living room. woohooo!
Sponge washing burrito bits out of my power suit, I tell myself, I can do this. The burrito was a consolation prize from the last failed attempt to regain gainful employment. I sigh with the iron as it steams the years old wrinkles from a dress-shirt. I can do this. I iron my hair more meticulously than the shirt, ridding segments of strands of their...
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bronte:
Ha ha ha. Awesome. Wasn't it Carls Jr. that had that campaign saying something like "If it doesn't get all over the place, it doesn't belong in your face"? A burrito was a damn fine prize..hopefully worth the effort.
Good luck on the interview. You seem to be good at articulating your thoughts, so I imagine they'll be impressed! Best advice anyone ever gave me was "no matter what you have to offer, ALWAYS come from a position of strength". Get them talking..turn it around on them...make it so they feel YOU are interviewing THEM and justifying why you should even bother working for their company. Though do it without coming off as an ass....therein lies the challenge.
I'm shying away from the Shun knives until I take some sort of cutlery techniques class. Otherwise, watch the headlines for "Man cuts onion, Bleeds to Death." I'll stick to my Globals for now.
Good luck on the interview. You seem to be good at articulating your thoughts, so I imagine they'll be impressed! Best advice anyone ever gave me was "no matter what you have to offer, ALWAYS come from a position of strength". Get them talking..turn it around on them...make it so they feel YOU are interviewing THEM and justifying why you should even bother working for their company. Though do it without coming off as an ass....therein lies the challenge.
I'm shying away from the Shun knives until I take some sort of cutlery techniques class. Otherwise, watch the headlines for "Man cuts onion, Bleeds to Death." I'll stick to my Globals for now.
stompbox:
Good luck. I despise job interviews. I don't like feeling like I'm trying to sell myself. I feel slimy for taking menial day-to-day tasks I've done and making them sound like achievements. I just have to convince myself it's all a game, and one that I'm supposed to want to play.
Knock 'em dead, or however that saying goes. Hopefully you won't need another burrito (unless it's the same prize for victory).
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Knock 'em dead, or however that saying goes. Hopefully you won't need another burrito (unless it's the same prize for victory).
[Edited on May 17, 2006 8:56PM]
I miss being a kid. I miss climbing trees and wearing underoos and wrestling with my brother. I miss the days when the hardest decision I had to make was when my dad took us kids to Larry's Ice Cream Parlor. Rainbow sherbert or strawberry ice cream? That depended on whether or not I was allowed to have the waffle cone (waffle cone = strawberry)....
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bronte:
Awwww...those are nice memories. Wow...underoos...mine were He-man, GI Joe, and Transformers. Let me guess yours...My Little Pony, Rainbow bright, Care bears...hrm...or perhaps Scooby Doo and Wonder Woman. Smurfs?
Please please PLEASE don't say you're old, cuz that would make me old too. Someone told me life begins at 30..I'm still waiting! It is depressing watching friends "grow up" all around you and feeling like you're still futzing around like a confused high school student. Ooops, sorry, didn't mean to project my life onto yours.
Sounds like you do have an important decision to make. Going back to the rents is certainly extreme, but there's no shame in it. Sometimes you need to jump start your life in order to put things into perspective and consider what is important to you...and you need to do it around people that make you comfortable. Whatever you do, get the heck OUT of So Cal -- I say this as a born and bred Californian!!!
Oh, thanks for the kind comment in my journal. I'm so damn happy about my new job...can't wait for Monday! Good luck on your hunt too!
Please please PLEASE don't say you're old, cuz that would make me old too. Someone told me life begins at 30..I'm still waiting! It is depressing watching friends "grow up" all around you and feeling like you're still futzing around like a confused high school student. Ooops, sorry, didn't mean to project my life onto yours.
Sounds like you do have an important decision to make. Going back to the rents is certainly extreme, but there's no shame in it. Sometimes you need to jump start your life in order to put things into perspective and consider what is important to you...and you need to do it around people that make you comfortable. Whatever you do, get the heck OUT of So Cal -- I say this as a born and bred Californian!!!
Oh, thanks for the kind comment in my journal. I'm so damn happy about my new job...can't wait for Monday! Good luck on your hunt too!
stompbox:
I was having very similar thoughts about an hour ago, zoned out jogging down the bike trail by my house. I couldn't agree with you more.
I don't have advice on for you on the where-to-live thing (and you shouldn't even listen if I did) but it sounds like a tough, choose-your-own adventure decision if there ever was one.
I don't have advice on for you on the where-to-live thing (and you shouldn't even listen if I did) but it sounds like a tough, choose-your-own adventure decision if there ever was one.
Erm, ahem, Happy Valentine's Day!