anna

if you really love me, then lets make a vow. right here. together. right now. ok?
ok
im gonna be free
im gonna be free
and im gonna be brave
im gonna be brave
im gonna live each day as if it were my last
oh, thats good
you like that?
yeah
say it
im gonna live each day as if it were my last
fantastically
fantasically
courageously
courageously
with grace
with grace
and in the dark of the nite - and it does get dark - when i call a name, itll be your name... whats your name? nevermind, lets go
lets go
everywhere
everywhere
even though
even though
were scared
were scared
cause this is life. and its happening. its really, really happening.


ugh. things are funny. i feel like im going to throw up all the time. its nerves, not a fetus.
behold the face of a woman determined to sabotage every decent relationship she has ever formed:



hey, thats me!

i dont remember what i was going to tell you.
laura veirs sucked, but the opening act was just lovely. a friend took me to see morrissey this past weekend, and that was lovely as well. better than i had expected. june 11th i am hoping to see au revoir simone in cleveland, perhaps tortoise later that week in columbus. ill be in chicago july 12-15 for pitchfork. i will also be there looking for a job and a place to live.

today my mother attempted to confide in me. this is a big deal for someone who generally talks to me like im a retarded five year old. i freaked out and said the wrong thing, and i really upset her. i feel horrible. i cant stop thinking about it. the ball in my stomach gets a little tighter every time i do. im going to get an ulcer. im not kidding.

friday nite i am going to have dinner with my friend luke. then andy and i are going to watch pans labyrinth. ive got some tilling to do this weekend.

i think andy has a tapeworm. they are doing blood tests to find out. ill keep you updated.