animul

so far this year has been nothing but a slew of disappointments, everything is going worse then last year. seems the more i try to make it better it just gets worse, i really dont know why i write on here i guess its just easier than tryin to get someone to listen to me in person. for this year im gonna try and not be the one that my friends turn to for a shoulder to cry on, it seems like a cruel thing to do but im sick of being a convience to them, they are never there for me so im gonna let them see how it feels for a bit.

i have chatted with a few awesome ppl on here that are super nice to talk to but im having no success lately meeting new ppl, ive tried going into sg chat but it seems like such a click and noone wants to let me in,i enjoy this site to pieces but i find myself losing intrest in it more, i wish there were more ppl from around here on it so there were events to go to but that likely wont happen, eveyone is so damn backwards here. i guess i will give it awhile longer though