Ahhhh good morrow starshines!
This past weekend was hands down one of the best weekends I've had in awhile. Since I'm still super fresh here on SG here is a little background about why this weekend was ground breakingly epic for me.
Growing up I never truly fit into a certain group. You see I am half black and asian and I also love hardcore, deathcore, edm, pop, country, rap, grime, tattoos and piercings (everything that wasn't socially accepted for someone like me at the time).
My dad was in the military so I was born in Miami, raised on the islands of Guam, Hawaii and lastly moved to Georgia. Being a military kid who moved around a lot and had so many different cultures embedded in me made it hard to make friends who completely understood who I was.
With being mixed and being from all over the place, people always expected me to act a certain way. My fellow black people really wanted me to be the stereotype black person. Most would say that isn't true but I've often been told things like, "Why do you date white boys? You're too pretty for that. You'd have nice chocolate babies." Or "You speak like a white girl, why do you want to be white?" or "Why do you listen to all that screaming? That music is so shit." or even the other way around when my fellow asian people wanted me to not be asian or more asian. "You aren't asian enough to understand what this problem means." (damn, even asians stereotyped the asians) or "Oh, you like anime? I thought black people didn't like that?" or "Why don't you speak your language if you're really filipino?"
Can you feel me rolling my eyes to the back of my head right now?
Yeah, that is exactly what it was a lot of the time. I had to dim my personality often and suppress my desire to talk about things that set my soul on fire. Having to tone who I was down for so long carried well into my 20's. Only when I moved on my own and had to make my own way did I start to ease out who I was.
Once I got comfortable in letting my nerdom fly I met this amazing girl in college named @maudlin and I was in awe. I don't care what anyone says, her free spirit and beautiful soul opened my eyes to things that I've been dying to do but never had the courage to do because I was still afraid of acting against what is expected of me.
I'm pretty sure all of us here had some form of the same story but that is precisely what I love about the SG community. I love that most of us come from the background that lacks social acceptance but we all accept each other for who we are. This weekend I felt pride when I shot for my first SG set. I felt good knowing that I'm doing things that make me happy and that are fun for people that feel the same feels ya know?!
That's why this weekend was amazing, I had @maudlin cheering me on in the background and I finally felt 100% free to be me. It is totally cheesy but cheese is nice a majority of the time...well unless it bothers you to eat it... nevermind. :))
Anywho, I love you all! I hope you guys like my future set!
Love,
Animejuliet <3
