Someone needs to bleed...
That's how angry I feel. Now I may not have handled things as well as I could have when I split with my ex, but she is really fucking with my head now. We had decided we were going to try and be friends, and she keeps starting conversations with me through text and e-mail then deciding she doesn't want to talk to me after all and just ignoring me.
Last night, after a period where I really felt that I was managing to get on with my life and move forward she text me saying she wanted to go see this band that we used to listen to together in this gig they're doing in an abandoned priory, because it wouldn't feel right with anyone else, and that she has been feeling good and I have been on her mind. WTF?!
When I told her that it was more that I wasn't ready for a relationship than that I didn't love here - truth - she made it very clear we were never going to get back together as far as she was concerned, saying it was highly unlikely and she didn't think she wanted to. Now she is telling me she is thinking about me and wants to go see some lovey dovey band with me in what I consider to be a really romantic setting? She still wouldn't talk to me when I called her though, and I swear I am losing my mind.
Maybe this is what she wants. Maybe she is purposely fucking with me to get her own back, but all I ever did was be as honest with her as I could, for better or worse. I rally hate this situation as she is not letting me move on. She won't actually act like a friend despite saying it's what she wants, but she doesn't want to say goodbye either and gets really snotty when I suggest we have some space.
I just don't know what to do, but I am so wound up right now I just want to break things while screaming at her to go fuck herself.
That's how angry I feel. Now I may not have handled things as well as I could have when I split with my ex, but she is really fucking with my head now. We had decided we were going to try and be friends, and she keeps starting conversations with me through text and e-mail then deciding she doesn't want to talk to me after all and just ignoring me.
Last night, after a period where I really felt that I was managing to get on with my life and move forward she text me saying she wanted to go see this band that we used to listen to together in this gig they're doing in an abandoned priory, because it wouldn't feel right with anyone else, and that she has been feeling good and I have been on her mind. WTF?!
When I told her that it was more that I wasn't ready for a relationship than that I didn't love here - truth - she made it very clear we were never going to get back together as far as she was concerned, saying it was highly unlikely and she didn't think she wanted to. Now she is telling me she is thinking about me and wants to go see some lovey dovey band with me in what I consider to be a really romantic setting? She still wouldn't talk to me when I called her though, and I swear I am losing my mind.
Maybe this is what she wants. Maybe she is purposely fucking with me to get her own back, but all I ever did was be as honest with her as I could, for better or worse. I rally hate this situation as she is not letting me move on. She won't actually act like a friend despite saying it's what she wants, but she doesn't want to say goodbye either and gets really snotty when I suggest we have some space.
I just don't know what to do, but I am so wound up right now I just want to break things while screaming at her to go fuck herself.