angrymeat

Hold on tight kids this one is gonna be a long ride. So a coworker passed away last week he was in a two car accidnet. Now I was not super close to this guy or anything but we talked alot in passing and such. he had 4 kids at home which is very sad. I am trying to understand why his passing has upset me so much. I think alot has to do with this is the first death I have dealt with since my nephew died . I mainly think though it is due to the fact that me and him were a part of the big great brotherhood of dads. It is so scary when you think about it. No matter how careful you are no matter how much you do in life to avoid it I guess when its your time there is no stopping it. Sad how another persons rush to get to work or inability to drive without talking on there cell phone can ruin the lives of so many. The guy was trying to get to work early to get in some overtime because his daughters bday was this weekend. Thankfully our company takes great care o there employees and he had tons of life insurance. At least after all the thing his children have been robbed of they wont have to lose there home. So here is the great part of being the network admin. Let me give you a rundown of my morning. I had to call telecom and have his name removed from his extension because when anyone would use his phone it would show his name in called id. This was making the ladies in service very very upset. I then got to go through his computer and gather up all the pictures of his kid's, personal files and emails so on . I have to then forward all of this to his grieving wife. then I have to email every company he did buisness with and inform them of his replacement . So pretty much everyone looks at me like I am trying to erase him . I know none of this is about me it jsut makes for a very sad morning. I am a very sensitive guy and when I am sad I cry. So I have spent as much of my morning as I can in my office away from disapproving eyes and busybodies. nyways moving on We ar e now in our new house . It is friggin huge I am loving al the space. I have an office and my own workshop. There is alot to do and for the past two weeks I have busted my ass doing it. I am however slowing down and realizing i donot have to do it all at once. It is spring again woohoo the time of self asesment. I love my son I love my job I love my house but I have next to no friends. I have people who I am friends with but none of them tend to like me all that muchh. I tend to be a little hard to take. Anyways I am off of here I have work to do .