angrymeat

hello again. I am in a very irratable mood tonight , I am not sure why it is something about this time of year I get in this mood. I guess I am just fed. up with certain people and aspects of my life. I have next to no social life . I think alot of that is by choice due to the fact that I am easily annoyed by others peoples stupidity. I wish I knew at what point in my life I became this way I used to be a very very outgoing person for the most part. I had a huge social life and was always doing something. I need to go back to the doctor and get back on my thyroid meds. I am getting a little depressive and very lethargic. I also need to eat better and get some exercise . I keep having this fear that I am going to die of a heart attack and leave avery without a father. it is amazing the things we worry about when we become parents. My friend kevin keeps trying to get ahold of me . I stopped hanging around with him a year ago because I was tired of being his doormat, He is a wreck he has some uber issue with the truth and trust and of course with women. Let me take you through kevins relationships for a second. kevin meets girl kevin introduces girl to friends kevin urges girl and me to become good friends so I can play shrink to them both. Keving freaks out because he then thinks me and eveyr girl he has ever dated are becoming too good of friends. kevin stop calling me or doing anything with me and then starts telling his girlfriends horrid things about me about how i try to sleep with all his women so on. then that is ussually followed by me and him not speaking to eachother for months or years until that relation ship fucks up and he needs a bro to talk to . ok now a little history on me I have only slept with one girl he ever dated and it was months after the fact. The relationship witht hat girl didnt work out because of my devotion to my friend. two other ex girlfriends of his have asked me out or various other things which I have rejected because of our friendship.anyways I jsut donot need him in my life he is very needy ,. it sux too because when he isn t being an arse he is damn cool and one of the people I feel closest too. sigh anyways I am going to e toff here night.