So more on that...
It's a new month. My degree program is wrapping up. I have an internship coming up in just a few weeks, and I don't have a property locked down yet. My brother just shipped off for another deployment. I'm feeling kind of stressed and anxious, to summarize. It's cool.. understandable, right?
I try to lay it out there last night with the gf(?) on the phone. Just vent, ya know?-- like here's how shitty I'm feeling lately. Just want to talk about it to lessen the burden, if you will. Then she comes back with. "Are you stressed about me moving?"
Well, yeah... maybe "anxious" is a better way to put it, to be honest. (It's not necessarily a bad thing. Moving is a big deal, and it makes sense to be stressed about it.) In retrospect, I should have said the part in parenthesis out loud, even as logical as I take it to be.
She goes on to ask, "Do you still want me to come?"
"Yes, of course I do." I answer immediately, cause I realize what the conversation has come to.
At this point I am just so annoyed and frankly upset about how we had to spin my shitty outlook into something that is about her. The rest of the convo is pretty muted and awkward. I feel like there's an alarming imbalance. I'm not an idiot. I know that in any relationship I'm in a vast majority of the focus will be on "her". That's fine. I'm cool with it. It just totally put me off that I could have a moment.
Sorry. Had to say it all here instead...
It's a new month. My degree program is wrapping up. I have an internship coming up in just a few weeks, and I don't have a property locked down yet. My brother just shipped off for another deployment. I'm feeling kind of stressed and anxious, to summarize. It's cool.. understandable, right?
I try to lay it out there last night with the gf(?) on the phone. Just vent, ya know?-- like here's how shitty I'm feeling lately. Just want to talk about it to lessen the burden, if you will. Then she comes back with. "Are you stressed about me moving?"
Well, yeah... maybe "anxious" is a better way to put it, to be honest. (It's not necessarily a bad thing. Moving is a big deal, and it makes sense to be stressed about it.) In retrospect, I should have said the part in parenthesis out loud, even as logical as I take it to be.
She goes on to ask, "Do you still want me to come?"
"Yes, of course I do." I answer immediately, cause I realize what the conversation has come to.
At this point I am just so annoyed and frankly upset about how we had to spin my shitty outlook into something that is about her. The rest of the convo is pretty muted and awkward. I feel like there's an alarming imbalance. I'm not an idiot. I know that in any relationship I'm in a vast majority of the focus will be on "her". That's fine. I'm cool with it. It just totally put me off that I could have a moment.
Sorry. Had to say it all here instead...