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Thank God today is pay-day!!!!! It's crazy to think that I am earning more than FIVE TIMES what I was earning less than 4 years ago (when I transferred from Durban to Jo'burg with my old company), but I certainly don't have any more spare cash lying around at the end of every month

Speaking of salaries, work is fucking hectic at the moment, & I honestly don't feel like I am being paid what I am worth. Hey, who does?! Seriously, though, we are all up for our annual salary reviews in the next month or so, & I have already penned an email to my boss; it's currently sitting in my Drafts folder, just waiting for the right time to finalise & click Send...Basically, when I started with the company in Feb last year, we had 4 magazines in our stable. There are now 8. That's DOUBLE the volume of work for the original amount of pay. Hmph, I don't think so They've told me I'll be getting an assistant, which is great, but they still need to take into account the past year's work I've done for them & increase my salary accordingly.

Anyway, fed up with the general situation at work & the amount of stress I am under, I took the day off yesterday. For those of you that don't know (I don't like talking about it too much), I suffer from depression. I have actually been a sufferer for more than half my life - since about the age of 14. And although my medication does wonders for my state of mind - indeed, my "happy pills" have probably saved my life - they are sometimes not enough. And I have the odd day, or period, where I just cannot bring myself to get out of bed. Usually once every 4-6 weeks. Yesterday was one of those days. My excuse to my boss is usually something along the lines of: "tummy bug" or "menstrual migraine" or "head cold" or "flu". God, if only she knew...

Today, however, I am glad to report that I am feeling much better. My parents arrive this evening, to stay with us for 2 nights. Tomorrow we plan to take them to Northcliff & show them our stand, where we hope to be able to start building in the next few weeks (there was a fuck-up with my tax return last year, so there's a bit of a hold-up with all the legalities & paperwork at the moment...AAARGH!!!) While all that's going on, my car is going in for a professional buff & polish, to try & remove the damage done to the paintwork by what I can only assume is "acid rain". Fuck, I pray it works. And I can hardly WAIT till our new house is built so my little car can sleep in a proper garage at night!! Then in the afternoon I am going to try & cook my folks supper (they are going out for dinner with friends tonight). Please note that the operative word here is "TRY". I am probably one of the world's LEAST domesticated women , hence we usually entertain with simple things like braais (BBQs), etc. But I am determined to give a proper home-cooked meal a go. After all, my mom cooked for me every night for, like, 18 YEARS, so I guess it's time for me to return the favour, huh?! Just wish me luck

All in all, it looks like this is going to be quite a quiet weekend for us socially. But next weekend we are going to support a friend of ours, Sonja, at her GeNeSiS party in Centurion (at a venue just opposite where they had the Metallica concert last weekend!) For more info, check out my Events page. If all "the usual suspects" are there (her database covers mainly the Jozi fetish crowd), then I definitely plan on getting myself some sweet 'n tender lady lovin'...


lady lovin'


Me & Anastasya @ Syn 2004

Love you all lots!! Have a FAB weekend!!!!!



PS. On Wednesday night I watched "SG: The First Tour", which Gia kindly lent to me. And I absolutely fell in love with the saying which accompanies the DVD that goes: "One day you will be nostalgic for now". How terribly true...