today sucked... how am i supposed to be in a better mood when it is cold and rainy and nasty outside?? well, i'm gonna got to wilmington and hang out with some friends tonight. hopefully it's even a little nicer there. i went out with my sister and her girlfriend last night, it was fun. i love them very much. we went to five star but it sucked... we bought a bottle of crappy champaign and then we drank some hypnotic drink and it was fucking gross!!! but whatever... this sucks... i'm depressed... i just feel so alone. i hate living in this apt all by myself. i had to go turn in a paper this morning saying that i'm not gonna renew my lease. i have two months to find a place to stay and get a roommate or figure out something to do. i just want to leave again and go somewhere else and start new but i don't know which is were being alone by yourself or being alone with everyone around. well, i'm gonna get on to wilmington i guess. xoxo