angelink

hey everyone. so... denny and i broke up again for good this time. i haven't even talked to him. i still want to be friends but i need time. he is a really awesome person and we both need time so we can be friends again. but i was a drunken fool when it happened so i hope he isn't pissed at me. anyways, i have all these people telling me i'm better than this, that i could do so much better... but if i'm so good then why do to i always get hurt. i give everything but i'm still just not good enough. alright... enough of that... sorry for being so "emo" guys but i'm a girl!!! (<-- smile while a tear runs down my check)... well, i know i'll get over all of this, and that it just takes time. but i'm just tired, i'm tired of trying and of feeling this way. i'm scared of being alone but i guess in the end everyone is all alone. i guess it hurts because i thought i found happiness but turns out it was all a lie. anyways, i've been hanging out with a myspace friend of mine named bracey... he's cool. it's really nice to have someone to talk to and that understands where i'm coming from. well, it's my sisters gf's birthday so i have to go to the bar with them. my sister gave her a diamond ring for her bday... she cried and i cried when she told me... i'm so happy for her... completely envious but happy. xoxo