angelink

so yesterday had to be the shittiest day i have had in a long ass time... to start off i dreamt that Dennis broke up with me and i woke him up in the middle of the night to make sure that he loved me still and that everything was okay. then, i had another dream that my little brother had a heart problem and dead and i woke up crying. then Dennis and i drove to Charlotte so he could meet my dad and stepmom and then we had been down there an hour and the band called to say that we had to be a practice that night!!! so we went to eat with my family and then we left. then we went to the practice and Naima and Mellissa and i went to Walmart while the band had a meeting. then Dennis and i went home to take some of the stuff i bought for him in and he told me that the band is making him move into the band house. he told me that he is moving out because the band said that they need the money before they go on tour. so because the band deems it necessary i am being weeded out of my boyfriends life. i cried all night and then it made him cry because i was upset and because he doesn't want to move. we aren't breaking up or anything but things are gonna change and i can't see how they will be for the better, ya know? then because the some people in the band like mae we had to drive to greensboro with them and no one really talked to me the whole time. but the show was sold out so those of us without tickets just drove back home. i guess in the grand sceme of things it isn't all that bad... i just feel so alone... "hello my first name is distance and i really don't care if i never wake up again! hello, my name is distance and i really don't care if i never wake up again!!!"