A great sadness prevails me as my hear echs as it slowly breaks and I feel my life slowly sliping away. My life line as been taking away without any reson. I'm left in the dark about thr reson why there is nothing left for me to do but die. Because I can no longer go on with out Her air that She breaths, the same air that gives life to me. Mistress of my mind, body, heart and sole. Please don't let me go. I dont want to see my grave at such an early age. As I drawl my last breath i place the gun over my cheast....... 
Or then I'm just unemployed student.
i hope you are ok.
things always get better.
trust me i know.